Resolution 2013

At the end of every year most of us make some resolution for the new year. But at the end those resolutions remains in our diary only, never comes out of the pages. I know this fact, so never penned down any point titled resolutions.
But at the start of 2013 I wish for something. I wish for some events to take place in my life. Just the wishes which may not come true but for which I will try my best in upcoming days.
1). I want to get employed.
2). I wish to meet my friends and have a blast every day.
3). I wish love to enter my life and make it more beautiful.(Not necessary though)
4). I wish at least two of my books get published.
5). I want to write at least three more novels this year.
6). I wish to do those things which gives me satisfaction.
7). I wish my friends to be together like always and remains same as there are.
8). I wish India to grow as country.
9). I wish our politicians to get honest this year.( impossible)
10.) I wish the prices of everything comes down.
11). I want to read as much as I can.
12). No more accidents and shameful events to take place.
13). I wish everyone to be happy in upcoming days.
14). I wish everyone to respect each other especially we must learn to respect women.
15). I wish the government makes some strong laws against child abuse, rape and murder.
16). I wish our law and justice system to improve and a little fast so that one doesn't have to wait for justice so long.
17). And I wish that every wish of mine comes true.
These are my wishes. What about yours?
Anyway have a wonderful year ahead. Happy new year 2013.

2012 for me

2012 is going to end in some more hours and 2013 is about to bigin. If analyzes the ending year, it was a good one for me. Though it was not up to what I expected it to be but at the same time, it doesn't go your way everytime. At the end I am happy for what the year gave me.
Till yesterday, like everyone I was also complaining about this year. 'The year was a bad one for ' I said a lot of times without even realising the positives. I was feeling sad. But at the time I turned towards the positives, a million dollar smile ran over my face.
I went jobless this year again. I went love less this year again. Many things again didn't came my way as I wanted. These were the enough reason to be sad. And I was. But in these moments of sadness, I discovered my passion for writing. I came to know my capabilities.
I took the pen and I realized that I was good at it. Soon I finIshed writing a lot of pages. Though not any of my works got published but one of the novel got selected by one of the biggest publishing house of India for publication. This was one of my biggest achievement this year. Even one of my poems got published in one of the known newspaper. Enough reason to be happy.
It was bad that I was far from some of my friends but at the same time they were never far from my heart. My friends were my biggest support throughout the year. They are the one who knows how to get best out of me. They are the one who motivates me. I can proudly say that they are my friends. And I love Them all.
I started hating the one whom I loved. But couldn't continue doing so. She was never with me. She was never by my side. But I can't curse her for that. She was the inspiration of my life and I want to thank her for that. May be she hates me but I have every good for her. Hope she will keep smiling and inspiring me.
My parents and family were loving and caring like always. I can proudly say that they are my parents and I love them all.
I want to thank every person who made my life beautiful or gave me a chance to learn from my mistakes.
Coming at the end of the year, it made me a bit sad. Last one odd months were shameful for all of us. I can't change what happened with some of the girls in our country but we can surely take a step forward to make a change in future. Hope that every one starts respecting each other and no more such incident will take place. I wish I could change everything.
I had some misunderstanding and a cold war with one of my friends. He took me wrong or may be I took him wrong. I want to tell every one with whom I had a fight once that 'I love them '.
I want to tell them all who thinks that it was a bad year for him or her, just find the one reason and smile for that it happened.
Wish you a very happy new year.

I hate you mom.

I was standing there in my balcony. Looking up in the sky. Everything was covered with the darkness of the night. But sky was still looking beautiful. Full of twinkling stars. Its always a good experience for me to vision a great sight. A happy experience always.
But tonight it was different. I was in a loss that can't be filled by anything. More than me it was my five year old daughter I was worried about. She was most affected by this event. We lost what we were in need of.
I was trying to find something in those twinkling stars. No, I couldn't, but there was still a hope which was keeping my eyes open. May be my life is breathing in there, I thought. May be the sentence 'Our dear ones always keep an eye on us and become star after death' is right.
"Dad. What you looking for?" I looked down. My Rockstar was holding my hand. Her eyes were sad. Always smiling girl was quite like never before.
"Hey my little angel, had your dinner?"
"No, I am not hungry. Why didn't you had your dinner?" she said in her cute but sad voice. I took her up in my arms.
"Dad is not feeling to eat baby but you must not forget to dine."
"Missing mom. Do you." her words went tearing my heart. I nodded. Of course I was missing my wife but more than that I was missing the mother of my daughter. I couldn't find anything funny to make my Rockstar smile. Got busy finding the faces.
"Wanna meet mom?" I broke the silence. She looked in my eyes with some hope.
"But mom is not here with us?" she said with the same sad tone.
"But we can see her"
"Really??"
"Look up there in the sky. You see that star" I pointed towards the star which was looking lonely without any other around it.
"Yes...."
"That's your mom. She is smiling. Say hi to mom."
She looked there for a moment. May be she was confirming it. She Got down from my arms and walked some little steps to the corner.
"You won't come na. Okay. If you cant walk back from there to me soon then me too can't see you smiling there. I won't talk to you. I hate you. I hate you mom" I was in sock after listening this from a five year old. Forgot to react. She ran away from the balcony.
That was the day and this is the day after almost twenty years. My little grown up angel was getting married tonight.
The girl who hated stars all her life was standing at the same place looking up in the sky today. I walked to her. She looked at me. She was crying. I wiped her visible tears and she broke in my arms.
"I hate her dad. I hate mom" again the same words I heard between the cries. I felt someone is tearing my heart out again. I wish I could get her mom back once. I wish god allow her mom to walk back once to her daughter.

I am angry

I am very angry right now and only way to get rid of my anger is writing. I don't have a better way to express it. I want others to feel my anger.
Some days ago i decided that i will not write another love story for a while now. But some real incidents are really forcing me to write it. I wish i could kick them out of the world. They dont deserve to be in this beaitiful world. And I will write another novel which will be the mixture of love, hate, murder, politics and the currupt sustem.
A week ago a love story came into news. They made it a political issue after they found a dead body which was recognized as the lover boy. The bad elements of politics destroyed a lot of the public properties. Police was not less, all the mistakes was theirs. In these police killed three another. Later they found that the first dead body was not of the lover boy. C.M took the responsibility of the incident.
Now currupt system and law is showing its real face. They are arresting innocent people for no reason. Just to hide their mistakes.
No one is asking about the dead bodies now. No one cares about the deads.
I just hate this system. And feeling to kill all those who is trying to cheat the innocence and against the love.

वो दिन हमारे ही थे

वो दिन हमारे ही थे,
पर आज कुछ है खो गया,
वो राह अब सुनसान है,
जिस राह हम संग थे चले,

अछे थे हम नादान थे,
हर बात से अनजान थे,
एक हमारा था जहाँ,
और अपने थे वो पल,

उस पल में खुशियाँ थी बहुत,
और गम भी थे कई,
पर जो अपना साथ था,
उस गम की क्या औकात थी,

फिर याद आता है मुझे,
थे बाग में जब हम गए,
शाम होने तक जहाँ पे,
हमने की थी मस्तियाँ ,

याद है हर शाम को,
जहाँ हम थे अड्डा मारते,
चाय पीते थे जहाँ पर,
और लरकी छेरते,

वो दिन हमारे ही थे,
और अपना था जहाँ,
साथ जब होते थे हम,
बांधते थे एक शमां ,

वो बात ही कुछ और था,
जब हमारा साथ था,
क्या क्या ना हमने था किया,
सबको हमपे नाज़ था,

राज़ की एक बात है,
हम लड़े थे कई दफा,
होते खफा हम भी बहुत थे,
पर उसमें भी एक प्यार था,

एक बात है सबसे छुपी,
थी हमने जब थोरी सी पी,
की थी कितनी मस्तियाँ,
यूँही हमने रात भर,

वो दिन भी हमको याद है,
जब गए थे हम बिछड,
बाद जिसके हमने काटी ,
अनमनी ही ये सफर,

काश! लौटा दे हमें फिर ,
दिन थे अपने जो कभी,
फिर ना उनको खोने देंगे,
खुद पे इतना है यकीन.

       कुंदन आर विद्यार्थी.

Wo Sisakti laash

Wo sisakti laash.
Pari hui hai us charpai par.
Man me kuchh sawal liye.
Av v soch raha hai apni galtiyo ko.

Wo galti thi ya uski nadani.
Sayad galti hi thi Jo use ye saza mili.
Galti nahi Usne to gunah kiya tha.
Us bachhe ne to pyaar kiya tha.

par use kaha pata tha zamane ka dastoor.
kuchh Palo me hi ho gaya masuhoor.
hai se tha ho gaya.
Pichhe chhod gaya apni sarkAti lash ko.

Achha hua sar gayab tha.
Warna dekh nahi pata apnI haalat Khud.
Khub koshta zamane ko.
Bichara fir se mar jaata.

Uski siskiya koi sun nahi pa raha hai.
Sayad sab soch rahe hai k sarkAti lash hai kya roega.
Sab to apni rotiya sek rahe hai uski maut se.
Uske jakhmo ko Kyun bhala koi dhoega.

Av to ye suruaat hai.
Ant ka kisi ko pata nahi.
Soch raha hai para hua.
Kyun mili ssza jab khata nai.

Bichara use kya pata k yahi hota hai.
Sachha hi aaj rota hai.
Jhute yunhi maje lete hai.
Bhalai karne wala hi khota hai.

Ab roj hungame hongey uski maut ko.
Morche banengey vote gine jaengey.
Aadhe udhar aur Aadhe idhar.
Aawaj uthegi to daba diye jaengey.

Bharkengey dangey.
Chalengi goliyaan.
Jaanch ke aadesh aur.
Rajnetaaon ki boliyaan.

Kuchh aur marengey.
Laasho ka ambaar lagega.
High alert aur red alert ghosit hoga.
Adhikari badley jaaengey.

In sabke beech pis rahi hai ye lash.
Soch rahI hai uski maut se kiski jeet hui.
Jaanta hai koi uski nahi sunega.
Saayad kuchh din aur yunhi sisakta rahega.

नाराज़

ए आसमा के तारे,
ए चाँद ए नज़ारे.
देखा कहीं है तूने,
मेरे यार को बता दे.

वो जान है जो मेरी,
नाराज़ थोड़ा मुझसे.
सुन ए हवा उसे तू,
मेरे लिए मना ले.

वो है ज़रा सी भोली,
मीठी सी उसकी बोली.
तन्हाइयों में होगी,
बैठी कहीं अकेली.

उसको खबर नहीं है,
मैं भी यहाँ हूँ तनहा,
उसके बिना है मेरी,
ये ज़िंदगी अधूरी.

सुन बाग़ की ए कलियाँ,
जब भी यहाँ वो आये,
कांटे न चुभाना उसको,
रखना उसे संभाले.

ए असमा के तारे,
ए चाँद ए नज़ारे.
देखा कहीं है तुने,
मेरे यार को बता दे.

कलियों सी है वो नाज़ुक,
होगी नज़र झुकाए.
फिजाओं में रंग भर दे,
जब भी वो मुस्कुराए.

पहचान लोगे उसको,
देखोगे जब उसे तुम.
नज़रों में उसने मेरी,
तस्वीर है छुपाये.

ए पंछियों ए भवरे,
ज़रा दूर उड़ के देखो.
और ढून्ढ के मुझे तू,
उसका पता बता दे.

ए आसमा के तारे,
ए चाँद ए नज़ारे.
देखा कहीं है तुने,
मेरे यार को बता दे..
   Kundan Vidyarthy.

Our government: Running from responsibility.

I never have an interest in Indian politics. But when it comes to our country, yes I have all the rights to say for the good of our country. Not only me, but every Indian must say what they feel and whenever they need. If our government is taking a good decision we must support but at the same timeif they are at wrong and they are doing something which is not good for the country or country men, we must oppose it too. Its not just the politicians work but ours too.
A very few people take interest in the economic system or situation of the country. I personally never understood it. Thanks to news channels and newspaper that sometimes I get to read it. And I wonder about the decisions taken by the government to improve the Indian economy (as they say). May be they are right is there not any other way? I guess there is. And so called politicians must be knowing those options too but they are ignoring it. Why? Only they know.
Last time when the world crashed economically, we were the survivers. And I am not sure that this is going to be same when it crashes again as they are implementing new plans (borrowed).
From last few days I am continuously hearing about FDI's, LPG prices, petroleum prices and all. And everyday the prices of everything is trying to achieve a new height. I don't have any problem with any kind of decision provided they really improve our economy which I don't see at all. One more news that government is selling all those lands which is not in use, shame on Them (the government).
I don't understand where the funds are going so that they are in a situation to sell those properties. If they do what they say, what's the guarantee that tbe economic conditions will improve and it will remain in good position. Not any I guess. Nothing comes with a guarantee tag today.
So the question is why these decisions while we have some better ways. Look at this in following ways:---
(1). Indian soil has the capacity to feed double the population of India. If the government tries to give some attention to the farming of India, it can really Pay off. And surely contribute in making the country economically strong. At the same time farmers will also be happy and less suicides will be commited.
(2). Our government is wasting some money in the programs like MANREGA and sarv siksha abhiyaan. Its good that they implement these but what's the point in giving the money to unemployed workers. Instead they can try to create some opportunity for them to work. If relate to point one then many unemployed workers will get busy in farming and some problem will get solved.
In sarv siksha abhiyaan, government provides food, bycycle and many to the students. Good, but why to those who can afford it. Why don't they try to improve the education system and concentrate on giving education to everyone. They can provide other facilities to those who really need and can't afford it. Better provide books. They can save a lot of money this way which can be utilised at Other places.
(3). Today government is actually running from their responsibilities. They are turning their heads to privatisation. Good points?? Only they know. By privatisation they are only reducing their income. At the same time their goodwill is also getting effected.
(4). Today government have allowed FDI in retailing which will surely effect the small businesses. But will it really improve the Indian economy? A big question for Indians like me. If they really want this to happen (economic improvement) than why not the government themselves set some retail shops in different parts of the country. The plus point is if they set the retail shops themselves and sell everything at market price than the people will surely buy it and the profits will add in the economy of India.
But in FDI retailing, we have to buy it from them and surely they will not share the profits with our government. Than what's the point in sending our money to foreign.
(5). They (govt.) are going to sell unused land. Why don't they set some plants on those and manufacture the goods of daily uses with better quality. It will surely increase the emloyement opportunity and at the same time it will add in the economy of India.
(6). Instead of pulling each others leg, if the politicians and we try not to steal and get the best from the resources which we have than very soon we will be the best in the world.
(7). In every election, they waste a lot of money in many ways. And after election they throw all The expenses on 'janata'. They can reduce this bu they don't do. why will they while they are big people. They forget that they are just the servants..of countrymen.
Our government is actually running from the responsibilities. They don't want to take it. They don't have time. All time they try to pull opposit sides leg or make fool out of 'janata'. Trouble we people from increasing prices now and then. Actually they dont have to pay for anything so why will they care.
Indians just expect our government to work properly and honestly. We want them to take responsibility. If they do, I am sure we will not need anyone to survive. We have the capacity to stand on our own. We have to improve our system and we will be able to help others instead of taking help from them.
Jay hind.

Bete ka dil.

Yun to main har subah jaldi uth jaata hu par aaj merI neend zara Der se khuli. Ya yun keh lijiye ki 4 ghante Der khuli. Main Av nityakarmo se nivrit ho, snan kar ke baahar nikla hi tha ki kisi ki aawaj Aai. Saayad wo daakiya tha. Main Thora achambhit sa ho gaya. Aaj ke jamaane me daakiya aur wo v chithhi lekar. Ye to kamal hi hk gaya. Us se v aascharya mujhe iss baat pe hua k iss phone aur mails ke jamaane me mere aise kaun se chahne waale ho gaye jinhone mujhe chithhi bheji hai. Koi baat nahi Pehle chithhi to le lu fir pata to chalna hi hai us subhchintak ke baare me.
Main baahar nikla to daakiya babu aaram se kursi pe baith kar akhbaar ka aanand le rahe the jaise ki ye unka hi ghar ho aur unhe kuchh kaam bacha na ho karne ke liye. Namastey daak babu, bare din baad dikhe aap to kabhi humari v khoj khabar v le liya karo, Maine puchha. Aur unka jawab v kuchh jana pehchana sa hi tha, aajkal chithhiya kaun bhejta hai sharma ji. Daftar me kaam nai to jaana aana v kam hi rehta hai. Sach v to tha,  iss chhote se Gaon ka daakghar kaha kaam me aata hai kisi ke. Wahan to log baith ke patte khela karte hain. Iss aadhunikta ne kuchh chijo ko to mitane ki hi thaan li ho jaise.
Maine un mahasay se wo apni chithhi le li Lekin dekha to wo kuchh purani si lagi par likhawat kuchh jaani pehchani si. Ye chithhi aapko kaha se mil gayi, Maine daak babu se puchhh hi liya. Kya batau bhai saahab, diwali aa rahi haI so aaj Daftar ki saaf safaai me laga tha aur ye aapke naam ki chithhi mujhe mil gayi. Socha ke aapko pahucha v dunga aur isi bahaane aspse mil v lunga aur main daura chala aaya. Unka jawab mujhe raas naa aaya, log sahi karte hain ab daak ka istemaal nahi karte hain. Kam se kam khabar to beech me kisi ki laparwahi ki wajah se nahi atak jaati. Gussa kar ke koi fayada v nahI tha. Maine aaram se chithi kholi, likhawat mere bade bete sanjay ki thi. Main us chithhi ko padhta chala gaya. Padhte padhte meri aankhe bhar aayi. Saayad wo paschataap ke aansu the. Saayad main apne khun ko kabhi samajh hi nahi paaya, iss baat ka dukh tha ya aakrosh ki ab main kuchh nahi kar sakta. Mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai jab saat saal Pehle Maine uski Saadi ki thi aur wo bina koi sawal Kiev meri baat Maana baitha tha Lekin kuchh udaas sa. Uski hansi kahi gayab si ho gayi thi. Kaas main uski udaasi ki wajah jaan pata uss din to aaj sab khus hote aur wo v Muskuraati raha hota. Kaas ye baat mujhe Pehle pata chal jaati ki mere bete ki khusi kisi aur me hai to main uski Saadi jarur uski pasand ki Larki se karwa deta. Usne to mujhe bas ek baar us Larki se milne ko kaha tha Lekin Main ye v na kar saka . Kaise karta, ye kambakht chithhi Jo aaj mili hai mujhe. Chhoti si galti jiski saja wo av v bhugat raha hai. Bina sikayat ke jiye jaa raha hai. Ab ho bhi kya sakta hai. Iss baat ko to saat saal beet chuke hain.
Mujhe ji bhar ke Khud ko kosne ko ji chaah raha tha.mujhe gussa aa raha tha, Khud pe ya daakiye pe ya sanjay pe, main ye tak samajh nahI paa raha tha. Kaas Usne ek baar kaha hota, kehta kaise ?Usne aaj tak mujhse sar uthakar baat bhi ki hai kya. Saari galti meri hi hai aur kuchh iss nikammi Dak vibhag ki bhi.
Aap ro rahe hai sharma ji, aisa kya hai iss chithhi me, daak babu ne puchha. Mujhe jawab sujha nahi. Maine Socha kuchh Der tak aur kaha ' ye ek bete ka dil hai Jo ek baap kabhi samajh naa paaya.' daak babu bas mujhe dekhte reh gaye.

Muskuraati subah

मुस्कुराती हुई हो सुबह तेरी,
मुस्कुराते ही हर शाम गुज़रे,
चाँद कर दे जहाँ तेरा रौशन,
रात तारों भरी तेरी गुज़रे,
फूल ही फूल तेरी नज़र
में हो,
ना चुभे तुमको कांटे
कभी भी,
भर दे खुशियों से रब
तेरा दामन,
है दुआ मेरी हर सांस
गुज़रे,
भूलना ना हमें है गुजारिश मेरी,
भूल जाऊं तुम्हें हो ये सकता नहीं,
दूर हों गर कहीं हम किसी मोड पर,
अपनी यादों में हर याद गुज़रे,
ना तेरी ना मेरी ये
हमारी रहे,
देख के ये
जहाँ हमको जलता रहे,
राह कर देंगे आसान
हम तेरी,
मंजिलों पे तेरी शाम
गुज़रे,
दोस्ती ये हमारी आज की है नहीं,
ये रहेगी मेरी सांस जब तक चले,
अपनी बातों में हर बात गुज़रे,
बस यूँही अपनी हर शाम गुज़रे.

We never stop believing friends.

Friendship, is a word on which we don't think much and believe instantly what friends say. We leave all our works and run to friends whenever they call us. We don't think of a reason in friendship. But sometimes we pay for this blind faith. Due to some selfish people we start doubting the friendship. One of my friends Chandan had to pay for this. Another one who ditched him was also one of our better friends.
Chandan works in a steel plant in goa. He is a happy fellow, and has built a very good reputation among the other staff members, even the boss used to impressed with him. One day Rajesh calls him and ask him to help finding a job. Chandan offers Rajesh to come to Goa and he will arrange everything. And Chandan talks to his boss and boss agrees eventually. But in last moments Rajesh backs to come to Goa. Anyway Chandan don't complain for this and get busy in his work.
Not far from that incident, the company goes bankrupt and all the employees loose their job. Chandan is not an exception. But he is brave and strong enough to recover this shock.
In the process to find a new job he comes to know that Rajesh is working somewhere in Mumbai. So he calls Rajesh and request to help which Rajesh promises to. Next day Rajesh calls and asks Chandan to come down to Mumbai. Chandan agrees as he believed in his friendship.
Next day Chandan takes a train to Mumbai. 4 o'clock is the sheduled arrival of the train so at noon he calls Rajesh just to tell him where he have reached. But no One picks up the call. He calls again but the same response. He don't mind and thinks that he may be busy and will call later. Half an hour passed but no return call. Chandan was getting restless as the arrival time was coming closer. He was wasting his battery but Rajesh was not receiving the call. Finally he reached the unknown place where he finds no Rajesh to receive him. He waited but it was all waste. Rajesh neither came nor gave him any  call or message.
Chandan eventually gets in a tough situation where he dont know what to do and where to go. He didn't know anyone in this new city. He couldn't get back as not any down train was available. He had to wait there on the station for 8 more hours to get the train back to Goa.
Juice is that Rajesh cheated. At least he must have come to receive his friend. Any way these all thing keep happening but we never stop believing the word friend. Yes, we do stop believing some person though.

SRK and my tweets

SRK: Ye bhi achha hai ki ab kehne
ko kuchh bhi nahin.......
Bewajah khamosh rehna, ye
bhi koi baat hui....?.Dont
analyse the poem... enjoy ıt.
Me: @iamsrk Chahu sunta rahu Tere dil ki dhadkan jab tak hai jaan...
Ab tum inn adaaon se Maar daalo ye bhi koi baat hui.
Me: @iamsrk Har baar teri or badhte ye kadam tham jaate hain tumhe dekhte hi...
Ek baar tum in labon se mera naam na lo ye bhi koi baat hui.
Me: @iamsrk Ye phool ye hawaayei ye panchhiyan kar rahi hai tumse minnatei...
Tumhari aadat inki na sun ne ki ye bhi koi baat hui...
Me: @iamsrk Khamoshiya teri nazro ki kabhi samajh na paaye hum...
Yunhi nazrei zhuka lo tum ye bhi koi baat hui...

Last one which I dint tweet
Mana k hum achhe nahi tukbandi me..
Par humari baat ko yunhi nazarandaaz karo ye bhi koi baat hui.

Reservation: right or wrong??

Reservation policy in India. What do you think. It is right or wrong. If right then by what extent. If wrong than why we are supporting. I thought a lot over it. But i couldn't find the usefullness of this policy here. My thoughts may be wrong. But I don't see any profit for the mango people.
Today reservation system is every where. From admissions in school and colleges to jobs in any government sector. From elections to the number of members in parliament. Every where reservation have grown up its feet. Our government decides on the basis of cast not on the talent or ability. It effects directly to the upper cast and the quality of works done.
Our government don't get tired saying that in India every cast must be treated same, we are Indians and there is not any difference between any of its civilian. I agree upon this. But at the same time if every one is same and must be treated equally than why there is reservation for sc or st. On the time of declaring reservation they forget that every one is same? Aren't they doing dual behavior with the normal Indians. And all just because of their own profits not for the public. One side they sound Indians saying all is same to prove themselves better on the graph and on the other hand they keep doing stunts like reservation policy and all just to grab the vast vote bank of the lower cast or Muslims. They don't do this for the profit of the public but doing this they are actually creating distance between the uniqueness or Unity of India. Just they are following the path of English, divide and rule.
The public is also fool, they get happy with such declarations without even thinking the real effect of these kind of declarations. We Indians are in loss at the end of the day.
We are Indians and every Indian must get the equal opportunity without any differences. We don't need any reservation. We have talent and ability to prove ourselves at any level. These kind of actios from government distract us. And the government must remember this, they can't fool us always with these kind of stunts. No one can break our unity. They don't make us but we do. We create government and they must not forget this.
We are one country, one cast and thats humanity, one language and one religion that's too humanity. Jay hind Jay Bharat.

The lonely caravan

Once there was a caravans. Many people were there in that caravan. Of different age groups. Heading on an empty road. Very calm that caravan was. No one was talking like no one knows how to talk. All were sad. All in a sad caravan that was with a pin drop silence in there. Marching ahead leaving the traces of their tears. A very unique caravan.
This was not a usual one, had a history behind it. Once a lonely person stepped up on this empty road, leaving all his people who never cared for him. He was sad coz he was leaving them. And crying because no one tried to stop him. He kept walking. Soon another lonely person stepped on the same path and joined him. But no one spoke to each other, they were so sad. Thus one by one lonely people joined and thus formed the caravan. To say they were walking in a caravan but actually they were still alone with their own thoughts.
After a long journey on the same path they saw a young boy is coming from the other end. He was looking happy. How can he be so happy alone, they thought. The boy stopped near them and asked that where are they going. We don't know, one of them said. Where the path will take us, another answered. The happy looking boy adviced them not to go ahead coz the path has no end and they will get tired walking. He asked them to come with him.
They rejected the offer and asked why he was happy. The boy smiled again and answered,"I was also a lonely person while I was going on this path. I got tired and stopped at a place Under a big tree. I saw a bird sitting on the branch of that tree. Soon another one joined him from other tree and they flew away together. I thought that I am not the only who is hurt. I am not the only who alone. Many like me there in this world. So if birds can do this why we can't. Why we lonely people cant get together and be happy making our own world. So I got back to find sad and lonely people and spread some smiles. But why you all looking so sad." he finished asking another question.
The caravan people were surprised. They thought that they are so many and still not happy. They felt fool. They were Impressed with the boy. They joined the boy in making another happy world.
Now the caravan was moving back with one more people. They were smiling now. They were heading towards a new future to spread some smile.
N. A: never think that you are alone, there are many like you. So always find the reason to be happy. And spread smiles over the lips which think they are alone.

Hindi: ek sawaal??

Sabse Pehle maafi chahta hu ke main devnagri lipi ka upyog kisi kaaran wash nahi kar paas raha hu.
Aaj hinDi diwas hai. Mere man me wo ek sawal fir se uth khara  hua hai ke kya Hindi sirf kehne ke liye hamari rashtriya bhasa hai? Kya hum Hindi ko sirf Hindi diwas pe hi yaad karenge jaise ki use shradhanjali de rahe ho? Kya Hindi itihaas ke panno me dab ke reh jaaegi? Kya sach me hamari apni Hindi kuchh Dino kI mehmaan hai? Jaisa mahaul banta jaa raha hai us se to saari baatei sach hoti dikh rahi hain mujhe. Angreji ke dhun me hamari bhasa kahin gum si hui jaa rahi hai.
Aaj chahe tabka Chhota ho ya Bada, har koi chahta hai ke unke bachche English medium school Me padhe. Is se koi aapakta nahI hau lekin dard tab hota haI jab log ek vishay Hindi ko nazarandaaz kar dete hain. Hindi naa aata ho koi baat nau lekin Angreji aani chahye. Kuchh log ghar se bahar nikalte hi Hindi ko chhor Angreji ka daaman thaam lete hain. Aakhir Kyun? Kyun unhei sharam si aati hai apni bhasa bolte hue. Kuchh log Jo Hindi ko tarzeeh dete hain unhei heen bhawana ke saath kyu dekha jaata hai. Hindi na bola ho koi paap kar diya ho. Angreji ko Kyun ek status symbol ke roop me dekha jaata hai. Mujhe to aaj tak samajh nahi aaya ke hum dusro ke kapre pehen itna khus kyu hote hain.
Vidyalayo aur mahavidyalayi me pabandI si laga Di gayi hai Hindi bolne par. Sansad me Angreji bhasa boli jaati hai. Yahan tak ki humare uchch aur sarvochch nyayalayo Me dalilei tak firangiyo ke andaaz me diye jaate hain. Main sochta hu to gussa v aata hai aur hasi bhi. Fir Khud pe sharam si aa jaati hai aur sar jhuk jaata hai.
Kya humari bhasa firangi bolted hain? Kya koi aur desh apni bhasa chhod kar koi aur bhasa apnata hai. To fir hum Kyun aisa kar rahe hain. Main ye nahi kehta Angreji tyag karo lekin hindi ko Kyun kachra samajh rahe ho. Angreji antarrashtriya bhasa hai. Humei aani chahye aur jarurat padne par Uska upyog bhi Karna aavashyak hai. Kintu apni bhasa ka apmaan kahan tak sahi hai.
Hindi hindustaan ki bhasa hai aur Humei uspe na sirf garv hona chahye balki use bolne me bhi fakhra mehsus Karna chahye. Hindi bhasiyo ko samman ki nazar se dekhna chahye. Hindi humari hai aur hum Hindi ke hain. Humara kartavya hai ise sambhal ke rakhna chahye. Ise banaye rakhna hai. Main ummeed karta hu k Hindi ki dasa badlegi aur fir se hum apni bhasa ko Apna lengey.
Jay hind. Jay Hindi.

Maa....

Maa... Meri Maa.
O Maa... Meri Maa.
Aaja chhup jaaun main.
Tere aanchal tale.

Aa na maa, meri Maa.
Lag raha darr mujhe.
Main andhero mein hu.
Shaam se bin Tere.

Loriyaan...
Thapkiyaa...
Teri baahon k jhoole.

Daantna...
Galtiyon pe...
Pyaar se phir manaana.

Chot.
Mujhko lagey.
Dard hota tujhe tha.

Rota tha.
Tera dil.
Kuchh v hota mujhe tha.

Paas fir se bula le.
Rota hai dil Tere bin.
Rakh ke sar god mein.
Fir se so jaaun main.

Aa na maa meri maa
Lag raha darr mujhe.
Main andhero mein hu.
Shaam se bin Tere.

Door jabse hu tujhse.
Tabse soya nahin hu.
Hasne ki baat chhodo.
Main to roya nahi hu.

Thak gaya hu chalte chalte.
Saansei thamne lagi hain.
Raahei ruk si gai hain.
Manzil dhundhli Pari hai.

Teri mamta ka saaya .
Haath Rakh de sar pe fir se.
Thapkiyaa de sulaa de.
Loriyaan fir suna de.

Aa na maa. mari maa.
Lag raha darr mujhe .
Main andhero mein hu.
Shaam se bin Tere.

And I resigned.

Destiny, some people don't believe in such words and some do. But sometimes or the other destiny play such games that we have to walk on the which destiny chose for us anyway.
I never believed that such things exist in this busy competitive world. I always did what was decided by some people. I never had a choice to listen to my heart or to think by myself. In school days always busy with the classes and the books. A boring kid I was who never played, never talked, never smiled may be. And to girls, never gave them a look. I was afraid of them may be.
All the hard work with books paid of and I got another four years to spent with books and experimentation in IIT. Result favored me and I was getting a six digit salary from an MNC. I was getting everything for which a middle class Indian wish for. But something very important was missing in my life. The smile, I forgot when I laughed last time. I was still a boring person. A person without a friend and time for the family. Always got complaint from mom dad and my younger sister. I never had a time for them to talk and to sit with them. Can't help me anyway. 14 hours of work almost. And after such a tiring day less energy to do some other things. I was having a life of slave.
I never dreamt. Never had a goal in my life. I just carried on doing what I was said. Good grades for good salary. Never got time for myself. I kept on working and achieving for the company without any complaint.  But I was certainly not enjoying it.
32 years of age and not any attended party in my list. A lot of times thought to run away from everything and live a life the way I want to but I was not that lucky to listen my heart. I was tired from this life. The life in which I always missed. I was just alive nOt living.
One morning I got a bit early for my office, left the car at home. On the way , I saw a happy couple. I wished a life like that. I wished that some one loves me and always be by my side. I saw some kids playing. I never did that. I was getting jealous of those kids. Every little thing was laughing on me I felt. Every one was making a joke on me.
Why I can't be the part of this smiling world. Why i cant be happy. Why can't I Do something for myself. Why cant i have some friends. Why can't i spent time with my loving family.
I decide for the first time. Just for myself. I listened to my heart for the first time. I wrote a letter and reached my office, first time I was late. Directly went to the boss' cabin. Before he could scold me for coming late, I placed the letter on his desk. That was my resignation. I got out of the office feeling a lot better.
There are a lot of people who dont get a chance to smile for some or the other reason. I made my goal to spread some smile. To make some people happy. I wanted to learn how to live a life.
I smiled and put a step forward towards the happiness.

Broken smiles.

<p>6 a.m. Get up from bed and get ready for the school.<br>
7 a.m. To 1p.m school.<br>
1:30 to 3 p.m. Tution class.<br>
3 p.m to 5 p.m. Music class or sports class.<br>
5: 30 to 7:30 p.m. Another Tution class. <br>
8 to 10 p.m. Study.<br>
10:30 go to bed.<br>
Ten years ago it was really an easy and stressless life for students especially childrens. They used to enjoy their life. They used to enjoy every bit what they used to do. Their study too. And still they used to do well in each department. Most importantly they were smiling kids. <br>
But now, its a different story altogether. The upper shedule is of a ten years old boy of fifth standard. Always he is busy with his shedule. I don't remember his voice as he never speak. Never smile. I doubt he knows how to smile or not. He is not happy as he is not enjoying anything. How can he be happy? I mean such a pressure. How can a ten year old boy hold such a pressure. <br>
He is trying his best but at the end nothing goes his way. At the end he has to get scolding from his parents. If someone does well then is it right for the cost of smile and life's happiness. <br>
Today parents push a child in the competition even before s/he opens the eyes for the first time in the world. Competition, competition and competition. Every parent want their child in the first row. Everyone want their child to be Einstein or tendulkar. But at the same time they forget that parents of these greats didn't force them for anything. <br>
I know competition is there. But in these we are losing the smile. The smile which used to be the refreshing element in our life. The smile for which we could do anything in the world. Now its hard to find such smile. Somewhere these competetive world is winning over all important smile.
Do we have any right to do this? No way, I mean how can we do this. But the truth is we are doing this. We are getting the smile away from our childs. For me happiness comes first. The smile comes first no matter I get it after losing or winning. I can be happy without a four wheeler but if my younger ones are having a stressfull life I can't be happy.
I need that smile back on the cute faces. Hate the competetion which breaks the smile.

I am not so strong.

I am not so strong as I show.
As I never let my tears flow.
I try to be smiling all the time.
All because I just wanna see you glow.

Whenever I see you crying alone.
What I feel inside you will never know.
I just wanna be with you always.
Whether I have to walk fast or sometimes slow.

I wanna cry whenever you are not around.
I too get scared of darkness and emptiness.
I try to be with you all the time.
Coz I know how it feels in loneliness.

I too have pain somewhere in my heart.
I too have a lot to share with someone.
All the time I keep listening never tell.
I know how it feels when listen to you no one.

I am not as strong as I look.
I too need someone to walk with.
I too need a shoulder to cry on.
I too need a lap to sleep In.

Sometimes I too wants to shout.
I never wanna be a part of the crowd.
I too feel to empty my heart under the blue sky.
When its raining and sound of it is too loud.

I too feel bad when someone gets me wrong.
Sometimes I too like to listen sad song.
I too deserve everything in my life.
Don't know why? Always I have to wait so long.

It hurts when someone ignores me.
Dont I have right to do the things what I wish to.
I also laugh, cry, walk and sleep.
Why dont they understand I am also a human being.
       by k.r.v.

Duality of humans

Well, we are humans. The most wonderful creation of god. The most clever animal ever. We have emotions as not other animal have this quality. But at the same time humans have the most complecated thinking too. Humans are dual in nature. Humans think dual in nature. I have not just seen it but I have observed it too. We can see it in our daily life. Around us there we can see many example.
Assume you are having a quarrel with some one. And you say that you belong to a good family and you don't want a war. Just see the reaction from the other side. It can be like, I have more deciplined family than you. Or, I too don't have time to quarrel with you. Or, what do you think I am a villain. Or something like to prove he is better than you.
Now say just the opposite. Like you say " you know who I am. I can kidnapp you and you will not eveb know it. I can destroy you in no time". Now see the reaction. He will try to prove he is a superior villain than you. Its true and its human nature

Take another example. Father of a girl at the time of her marriage. He wants her daughter to be married in a high society family. He wants to give the less dowry. Wants the boy to be in control of his daughter. And many more comfort for the daughter. At the same time. Same father at the time of his son's marriage. He demand the hIghest dowry no matter how good or bad the son is. He never want to accept a girl from the low society. If his son gives more attention to his wife, they dont like it and starts insulting both the son and the daughter in law. Many more opposite things happens. No matter how much a boy tease the girls he don't like to his daughter to be teased. Great. Many more such things we can see around. Many more examples which show that we are dual in nature. We respond differently according to our own convenience at the same situation. We know it but always ignore. Just because we are selfish. We always see the profitables just for us. We love the same thing if its for us and hate it the most if its not for us. Someone is awesome if he helps us and the worst if he don't. We judge people according to our need, not to his/her ability. We expect to get help in need and don't want to help if someone is in problem. We want our friends to be always with us but at the same time don't even give him/her a call if s/he is far away. Or don't even ask about his health. We always think he will call but don't have time to dial. We are humans. We learn from mistakes. But sometimes ignore it too. Knowing all we don't want to change it. We can never change I. Fact. Humans will always be dual. If it changes it will be best thing which can happen. Hope it will.

I never loved you

I am now 23. A much better thought I have developed. Though nOt matured and I love what I am.like

I have never been in relationship in my 23 years. I have enjoyed my status 'single '. But if be true, its heartbreaking sometimes. I have felt alone sometimes. I have felt crying sometimes and got no shoulder to cry on. I have missed that consoling voice sometimes. But the reality is I never got one. I always thought myself very lucky to have some great friends and really I am. But always they can't be with me to make me smile if I am sad. To make me feel better in my bad times. They are with me but they have their own life too and I don't complaint for that. coming on love. Its not that I never falled in love. Its not that someone never loved me. its just that I couldn't love anyone. Its just that i always thought I loved you but still I doubt that. May be I love you, may be I don't. May be you too love me. its just that I couldn't say it. May be I was afraid of saying or I never got confirmed that I really love you. sometimes I feel for you and sometime its all look bullshit. sometime i cry for you and sometime i hate you for no reason. sometime i pray for you abd sometime i dont even want ti give you a look. I never had a clear thought for you ib my heart. May be i loved you but you couldnt make that feeling strong in my heart. Its not that you are not beautiful. you are. very beautiful. I like you. I love you if you are the way i think or may be you dont deserve me as your life companion. May be i too dont deserve you but i never regret that. just because i know what i am, not because i am confused about you. i loved you may be but always been a confused feeling. i never undestood this part of my life. Never understood you. you are confusing. may b i never loved you. Anyway, best part is that i learnt writing. You were my inspiration in writing 75 songs and two romantic novels. I am sure i will b able to complete my third book too and yoi will be the reason. Thanks for that. Its all confusing. Next time i will.try to be clear.

Village trip: Unveiled truth-1

This is not a story I am writing by my imagination, no. This is truth. This is an incident which happened one year ago in a village and no one knows about this. A murder which took place in that place and the soul of the victim still asking for the justice and no one is willing to help her. A story which shows that how cruel and heartless mankind have become. It shows that how gutless the society is? And how paralyzed the thought of a person can be.

They say that parents are the god, but as some cruel and some insanity comes to my mind, I doubt that now. The parents who kills her girl child in the womb itself, how can be they a god? The parent who kills their own child, god never do the same, they never kill anyone. The parents are doing this in the name of prestige, social position and all, but I will ask is these things much important than your children, will these things increase or maintain the prestige and social position of yours. No it can only work when you are living in a paralyzed society carrying a paralyzed mind on your shoulder.

About 15 months ago, a Girl named Smita (Changed name) falls in love with a worker of his father. They hide it from everyone as most of the couples do, but one day her brother comes to know about this and here becomes the insanity and monsters play. If you think that your child is at wrong side you can sit and talk and settle for a solution. No the girl’s parent didn’t do this, one night when the girl was sleeping her parent with her brother did the cruelest thing, they put kerosene on her body and without giving her any chance lit her with a matchstick. And the worst part was that when she was burning no one was carrying a thing called heart, even some of the so called gentle person were also present in there but heartless. The girl died and they buried her in a farm field with the help of some gentle persons.

Everyone in the village know the story, and the one who thought this was wrong also didn’t raise a hand to do something for that helpless girl who had to pay for just being in love. And the family of that girl living their life nothing happened. Are these the parent we assume as god? At least some of them are not; they are worst then a monster. Is this our society for which we should think? I will never do the same, I hate them the most.

I wondered that in a village where a police station is not far from 3 kilometers, nothing happened to those cruel persons. How could they hide murder? I asked a person about the same and the answer I got was bind blowing. “The inspector took 50000 bucks to settle this” were the words from that gentle person. Wow? We live in a society where parent killing their child for no mistake, the society helping doing so and the police is settling it for 50000 bucks. Great India. And still they think that they are human and maintaining the prestige and social power.

**** this society, they don’t even deserve a single penny of respect.

The soul of the girl may be still wondering for the justice, I just want the world to know about this, may be it can help the helpless soul.

I request each and every person that still parents holds the position of the god on earth except some of them, please behave human at least....and don't do any thing which can hurt humanity. 

My first recorded song and my lifes born again.....

25th April is a very special date in itself but i should be proud on it or just be a happy person i don't know. The girl whom i loved and still i think that i love is reborn on the date, i mean this is her birthday and the funniest thing is that i cant even wish her that. a very simple question arises here, why i cant wish her, and i have a simplest answer again, i don't have her contact to wish.... and she don't like me to be contacted by. I never want to be a trouble for her and hurt myself so i restrict myself to come in her way.... just to be a happy person. 

Any way she is 18 now, and i wish her a very happy birthday... may god gives her a lot of happiness and makes me the reason of some of the happiness of her life so that i can see more killing smiles on her face.  

I have written a song for her just now, i wish i could dedicate this to her, any way some day i will do it......

Yesterday i went for a movie, VICKY DONOR. it was a very good movie. i am happy that indian cinema has also started to talk on some of the critical topics which is needed and also the audience is also taking interest on such kind of work. The acting of both Ayushman and yammi was good overall, Anu kapoor has done a fantastic work and others also did well. The script is a heart of any movie and the heart was present in good condition in the movie which was a good thing in itself otherwise nowadays the script is used to be a mr. india from the bollywood cinemas...   Liked a movie after a long.

One more thing i did in last two days, i recorded one of the song written by me in my voice without music and uploaded it on youtube..... just hoping that it gets some hits and people like it so that i can make a video of my other songs too and upload on the same media.

The time is now to have a good sleep so at last i just want to say a good night to all the sperms after all the world is full of sperms................And yes again a very happy birthday to my can be life....

Dil ki tamanna

Tamanna hai unhein pass pane ki,Nazron mein kuchh iss kadar chhupane ki,
Jamaane ki nazron se bachaane ki,
Unke raahon mein phool bichhane ki.
Hai tamanna uss dil mein bass jaane ki,
Unhein thora satane thora manaane ki,
Unki har muskaan pe mar mit jaane ki,
Unki baahon mein yunhi jhool jaane ki,

Hai tamanna unka deedaar kuchh yun pane ki,
Un nigaahon mein yunhi doob jaane ki,
Unki julfon se khel khel jaane ki,
Unke god mein sar rakh so jaane ki,
Har subah unka hi deedaar pane ki,
Raaton ko sapna unhi ka dekh jaane ki,
Unke khayalon mein kuchh yun bas jaane ki,
Unki palkon se neendein churaane ki,
Har raah mein unka saath nibhaane ki,
Unki har manzil tak unhein pahuchaane ki,
Unke har jakhm khud pe jhel jhel jaane ki,
Har haal mein khusi unhein de jaane ki,
Hai tamanna tere sang sang jee jaane ki,
Har pal mein tumhara sath nibhaane ki,
Kuchh iss tarah tera saath pane ki,
Hai tamanna teri baahon me dumm tor jaane ki.
                                                                                                                               K.R.Vidyarthy

Am Happy singing those lines......

Good Evening Everyone, every one means everyone in the world, whop don't read my posts, and if I am lucky to have some readers then to them too. Any way the day was same as always, a boring and ... boring day. Whole the day i kept thinking about the publishers, my menu script, new book and the songs but the best part was that i couldn't think of a word at all. Whole the time i wondered that what should i think, but not any conclusion i ended with. 

Yesterday i was a bit worried about my the menu script i send to publishers but today it was looking okay after i read a blog by author Harsh Snehanshu, one of my favorite. Any way just waiting for the positive response from any of the publisher. how ever my fiction is a mad love story, but still i am in doubt that some one will accept that or not for publishing. I have edited the work four times after completing but still i want to edit it to make sure that i get published some day. And also praying from the god that give me strength for the same. I hope everything will be fine. 

I am a very new person in writing field, just an year old. I havent a very good language but only a passion for writing, and i will keep doing this. I have already started writing my untitled fiction which will take two more months to complete at least. And will keep doing this without any expectation.

Today, no.... right an hour ago, i was singing the songs which i have written, and i was glad to hear it in my voice. Though i was not so serious while writing those but still those are turned out to be very touching ones. Hope one day i will reach publicly with my songs too. After doing this all, one thing comes in my mind and that is "I AM ALSO TALENTED ERR, I CAN ALSO DO SOMETHING CREATIVE.... AND SOMETHING IS THERE IN ME TOO TO CHEER ABOUT"

Did i do something wrong...

I am wondering today, Did i do something wrong. Was I had to be patience.  Now what if i was at wrong side. No answers for my questions.

I was googling today for the publisher and all query. Most of the places or articles said that I must have sent the menu script to an agent first, it could be  good way to get a publisher. And if want to send a publisher directly make sure that your work is professionally edited and don't ever send the menu script to many publishers at the same time. It shows that you don't have patience and your not professional.

Now what, i have done a lot of mistakes. First i didn't sent the menu script to an agent. Second i sent this unedited thing to publishers directly and that too to more then one. Now i am afraid about a lot of things.  Yes am not a professional, though a bigginer. But want a good career and make people entertain with my writings. 

Now only god can help me, my part i have done already my be it was right or wrong.

Bechain Dil.....

Here is the latest poem which i have posted on my site and yes here too....just read and comment if you like it....

Bechain Dil 

Aaj subah se hi pata nahin kyun,
Dil mein ek bechaini si hai...
Pata nahin kyun Tumhaara khayal
Reh Reh ke dil ko sata saa jaata hai,

Aankhein tarap si uthti hain tumhaare deedaar ko,
Tumhei paas paane ko man machal saa jaata hai...

Tanha saa bhatakta raha andheron mein Raat bhar,
Ek aash thi Dil mein ke subah fir se aayegi,
Subah ki kirno aur panchhiyon ke chehchahaane ke saath,
Man mera yunhi sawar sawar saa jaata hai...

Bhatakte bhatakte tanha raaston mein,
Tmanna si jagti hai tere saath saath chalne ki,
yun to manzil aise bhi paa lengey hum,
par abhi man kabhi sambhal to kabhi fisal saa jaata hai,

Ankhein jab bhi band hoti hain raaton mein kabhi,
Sapno mein aake baatein tum hi kar jaati ho,
Keh jaati ho fir aaogee mujhse milne,
Tumhaare intezaar mein saara hi din guzar saa jaata hai,

Garmiyon ki kadi dhoop mein chhaon ki tarah,
Karkaraati thand mein alaao ki tarah,
Tujhpe aane waale har jakhm har museebat,
Khud pe jhel jaane ko dil kar saa jaata hai,

Tumhein palkon mein kuchh iss kadar chhupa kar,
Tumhein sabki nazron se bachaane ko dil karta hai,
Dil mein jitne bhi khwaab hain tumhaare,
Un sab ko poora karne ko man kar saa jaata hai,

Tumhei har dam muskuraate dekhte rehna,
Tumhaari jheel si aankhon mein doob jaane ko man karta hai,
Tumhein paas paane ko jee karta hai,
Tumhein duniyaan ki har khusi de jaane ko jee karta hai....
Kundan R. Vidyarthy

struggling.....

Hmmmm..... A very boring Sunday is going to finish after all. I have just finished writing my another song and now want to give some rest to my tired mind. last week was a bit of mix for me. First my sister got an accident and my niece too. Thank got not much damage was done. Now they are perfectly fine after a weeks treatment. Just a little pain in the jaw of my sister is still there. My niece is fine now. The whole week i spent in looking after them. A Day for my friends too. No movies and not much fun this week. Hope it will come for sure in the upcoming weeks. 

Coming to my professional career, I am still waiting for the first positive reply for my Novel, I wish.....Life gives me one more chance. One rejection i have already got, but still a belief is there inside that the work will get published someday. In the mean time i have started working on my second fiction novel which will be based on a murder and a love story, as far as it is now. It may go other way in the process. I will surely make it a worth reading which will grab readers mind through the end. Just wish me luck for that.

As i write my poems and songs too, mostly romantic, i want those song to reach all the public. but not getting the way out of it. Should i sing it by myself and post it on youtube, i am still wondering about. The poems are there which i can publish out here and on my website too, which i will soon be starting..... And hope you all will read it and like it too......

Love you all.....good night and sweet dreams.....

Rejection started just now.

    In my love life didn't proposed any one just because of that i was scare of rejection. But in writing just now i faced one rejection. I wrote a good love story and sent it to some of the publishers. And one reply came, just now.... They say ,"it does not fit our publishing profile and hence we won’t be able to undertake the same for publication.". Feeling so bad right now, wish that some one can be here to give me some hope. But as i am lone in my life my life so i have to face it by myself. And will Face it. 

   I started working on my second fiction yesterday. But all the so called josh is gone right now. I am not the person who gives up on the things to just let it happen. I will make my menu script better and find one publisher, it was the first rejection, let see how many rejects.... Hope that at least some one ask me for the full menu script. If one do so and reads the full menu script, am sure that he will like it. I will not leave it, i will work on it and get success. 

   My struggle in the writing field have just started, wish me luck to face it and go through it. Some day or the other i will surely come in the sight of readers and my books will be in the hand of indians.

At last just want to say that.......
                                          Himmat kar di jab aagey badh jaane ki, to darna kya aandhiyon se...
                                          Manjil par pahunche Bina Haar nahin maanengey..... 

M back....

Helloooo guys... M back on the blogger again, after a long time... i know there was no one missing me here, coz no one actually reads my blogs but still it feels good when i write something out here. 

Now one question will arise, if i like posting out here then where i was in last some days. Why didnt i posted anything. And i have the answer, not an excuse..... I was busy writing.... i was writing my first fiction work, just for you all.. i completed it yesterday and i am here again. I have written a love story hope publishers like it and ive an opportunity to read the readers, hope you will too like it....... i have sent the menuscript to some of the publishers, fingers crossed for that..... just praying for you all that you too get a chance to read my work.... and encourage me to write more and more so that i can entertain you all and give you some more must read novels in your hand.Now finding another good topic and story line to write on, and i will start working on other fiction work very soon. Coz i think without writing i can not live. Today i haven't wrote any thing, and whole day i got bored. Just want some encouragement and some appreciation too. Of course some positive attention of Publishers too.

one more thing i did in last days, i completed my 40 poems, in which some looks like a song. I dont know you will like it or not so i havent posted it anywhere till now. All the poems are romantic and love poems, some are sad too.....i like writing sad ones...... i will continue doing those all writing things which gives me happiness coz writing is my passion.

Other then my writing works, no improvement in my life till. Neither my love story is moving nor my professional life. My friends are too getting away from me. But no one is far away, they all live in my heart. I love them all.

Love you all, good night......will be back soon..... and hope to get some part of love from you all........Sweet dreamzz.....................