Status symbol

He believed love. He valued relations. At least, as I knew him. As a friend and as space we shared from last five years. But today, as I am staring at him and he us walking away from me, he is looking like a stranger to me. I feel like, I don't even know a little bit of him.
He had a lot of people around him. Few good friends and a sweet, loving family. But the special place inside his heart was always vaccant. He wanted someone to fill that place in his life. He wanted someone who could understand him and care for him and love him. And I always believed that one day he would lead an endless relationship one day.
A true person he was, who knew the meaning of losing. And also he knew the meaning of waiting. Once when in school, he fell in love. But couldn't make his story as it was one sided and this ended before it started. Still, with the emotions he talked about that girl was enough for me to realize that he can never fake. He can never hurt a person.
This time when he got back to meet me after almost 6 months, he told me he is in a relationship. I was more than happy for him. Finally the space was filled. I congratulated him and asked many thing about the girl.
But, when I asked him about the future plans with his girlfriend, I was amazed with his response. I never expected this kind of reply from him. From any other guy I could have accepted it as I know how people think about a girl or a relationship today. But this was not just the other guy. He was the one who alway respected these things.
" Look yaar. I know it doesn't sound like me but really, she is just a status symbol for me in my college. She is a beautiful and good at academics too and a girlfriend like her ranks you on top among your friends. And I am enjoying this. One more year and I will walk my way. That's it."
His words were still echoing in my ears as he was waiting few steps away for me. He was looking at me and I was re- thinking my view about him. Does he really respect relations? Does he even respect a girl?  And friendship? Everything seemed fake....!!
    Kundan Vidyarthy

दहाड़ता हुआ सा - 3

1). पहले की बात और थी, पहले तो हम निशाने पे हुआ
करते थे ।। आज भी बेवजह ही परदा करने की ,पर
आदत नहीं गयी तुम्हारी ।। KRV ।।

2). कभी तूने कहा था के मैं तेरा आइना हु // और आज
टूटकर बिखरा पड़ा हु एक कांच की तरह //कुंदन
विद्यार्थी //

3). मैंने तो तेरी आँखों में बसकर तेरी नज़र से
दुनिया देखना चाहा था // तूने दरकिनार कर दिया मुझे
आंसुओं का बहाना करके // कुंदन विद्यार्थी//
4). तेरे इश्क में कुछ तन्हाईयाँ भी मिली, कुछ ग़म
भी मिले । लोगों की रुस्वाइयां भी मिली, और आँखे
नम भी हुए । पर जो नहीं मिले वो तुम थे और
जो नही भूला वो हम थे । फिर भी कटती है हर शाम
मुस्कुराती हुई तेरी दी हुई तन्हाईयो और ग़मो के
साथ । कुंदन विद्यार्थी ।।

5). तेरे लबों की हंसी और मेरे दिल के दर्द
का वास्ता कुछ यूँ था // तू हर हकीकत को ख्वाब
समझ कर भूल गयी और मैं हर ख्वाब को हकीकत
मानकर सांस लेता गया // कुंदन विद्यार्थी //

6). तुझ पत्थर की हीरे सी चमक में यूँ खोये रहे के जाने
कितने बेतरासे हीरों को नज़रंदाज़ कर दिया ।। कुंदन
विद्यार्थी ।।

7). मुझे गुमान था के मेरा चाँद दागदार नहीं है.... उसने
यूँ किया के मेरे इस गुमान का भी क़त्ल कर
दिया ....।। कुंदन विद्यार्थी।।

8). आज दिल जार जार रोने का चाहा // और फिर यूँ
हुआ के बादल बरस पड़े// कुंदन विद्यार्थी//

9). तुम मेरे ख्यालों से जाती ही नहीं हो // और कभी मैं
ही तुम्हें रोक लेता हूँ जाने से//इस तरह मैं
नींदों को भी भुला देता हूँ// और अक्सर ही सपनोंमें
मिलने का वादा तोड़ जाता हूँ मैं//कुंदन विद्यार्थी//

10). उसे डर है के कहीं उसे भी मोहब्बत ना हो जाए
मेरी तरह // शायद इसलिए हर बार सामने आने से
कतराती है //कुंदन विद्यार्थी //

11). तू उधर नाराज बैठी है
मैं इधर बेचैन बैठा हु
देखें ये सिलसिला चलेगा कबतक ।। कुंदन
विद्यार्थी ।।

My quotes : 1

1). sometimes ignorance is necessary to make them realize what they are missing.

2).We waste most of our times
discussing about a person who has
no importance in our life.

3). If you find any single reason for that you are in love with someone then you are not in love actually. Love doesn't happen for a reason or with a reason. It just happens and sometimes you don't even know that it has happened to you.

4). We all make mistakes as we are
humans... But when we say that we
made a mistake falling in love, we are wrong. Love can not be a mistake. It's the bad luck of that person who couldn't understand your true love...!!

5). Money is easy to earn... but what difficult is to earn the trust of some people... !! And keeping their
trust...!! And the biggest difference is... you can earn money back once you loose it but you can't earn the trust back once you break it...!!

6). Love makes our life beautiful? No, it only gives you pain and make you learn to live with it only. The day you learn to live with that pain and put a smile on your face, they assumes that your life is beautiful...!!

7). Don't follow me....i may not b on the right path..... Don't go ahead of me ..... i may not come along...... Just be with me in my gud or bad times...................!!

8). Love is a game of heart and
brain....where when heart agrees,
brain has to just follow......

9). They don't even respect you or your feelings.... and still they pretend to be loving and caring...! They don't even deserve your hate..!!

10). Don't pretend to be angry with your loved ones... sometimes it can
change everything and you won't be able to even regret it.

11). Sometimes you start loving the
person who doesnt deserve even a
bit of it....! The worst part is, you
know this fact but still you dont stop loving that person...!!

12). Don't give anyone the power to get away your smile from you. No one can, if you want. Keep smiling..!!
    kundan vidyarthy