unending wait....

Yeah, now it feeling like its winter. A sense of coldness has just got in the wind of Kolkata, and the feeling is great after a long time. We were just waiting for the time when a feel of winter came in Kolkata. Any way, nothing good was going on in Rohan’s life a few months before.

Rohan is a very young and talented boy. He has set up some rules to live his life. But according to a movie sarkaar, “ Jo apne usool pe chalet hain unhein uski keemat chukaani parti hai”, so rohan is also paying for that. from my point of view, the people who follow certain rules in life, are bound to be successful.

Rohan also thinks the same. He is from a middle class family background. His parents are very good but he never got the support he wanted from them. But still he is a person who never gives up, and has confidence in himself.

He have not got a damn good news for which he can get happy enough in last two years, but still he smiles every time hiding his all the emotions. He haven’t got a small success in what he wanted but still he is trying hard to get it. He always listen to everyone but no one is there who can understand him, and he never complain for that.

But one day he seems very happy. I thought he has got some special news from somewhere.

“ hey Rohan, what’s up buddy, looking happy.” I asked him

 He spoke nothing just came to me and hugged me.

“yeah I have something to tell you, just sit here” he said.

He shares everything to me, every bit happens in his life. He told me that finally he is feeling that someone special is soon going to enter his life. The girl of his dream, the girl whom he loves from two long years but never said to her. The girl with which he can spent his whole life without worrying about anything.

“So you are happy just for it feels like it will happen, don’t be too exited buddy” I said in a low voice. I know his luck, every time the good happenings have just turned his way after seeing him on the way.

“Yeah buddy, you can understand that, not a damn news came from a decade in my life, so just a feeling getting me exited” he was on his usual calm and cool tone.

But I don’t have believe on Rohan’s luck. It can turn away at any moment.

And I was right. Next day he was the worst Rohan I saw when I visited him. When asked, he told me that he was wrong, she don’t like him, she has a problem in everything I do.

“hey, you are low for a girl who doesn’t even care for you” I tried to console him.

“ no way, I didn’t ever expected that she likes me and will come my way, but I loved her and cared for her and will do the same. But I am low for the fact that why then she behaved like what she didn’t mean by heart, I thought she is a sensitive girl and good at her but she don’t even care for the people who is important to her but any way I still love her”

I met him the next day. He is again the same boy with a smiling face who meets everyone with a passion. But I know that he is waiting for the same girl still, knowing that she may not come.

I will be very happy if it happens. Hope that god help him.

Life is not a race

“Life is a race, if you will not run fast….you will be like a broken andaa” now a day every one seems to follow this rule to live their life. According to them, this is the only rule one should follow in life to get success. And yes, somehow they manage to get success, whatever they had aimed. But still they have to keep their feet in the race to survive. Means that race never get over.

But are they happy doing all this, achieving so much in life? Aren’t they missing the all important things in life while running the race? Is life really meant to follow some bloody rules to achieve some shit success? Are we enjoying our success? Is the feeling same when we had bunk our classes in school or colleges and now when we get a promotion? Is life meant to live like this where there is no joy and no happiness? There are a lot of question that should be asked to us. But we think that these questions have no meaning, this is totally nonsense. Only we say that life is not a joke with all the seriousness of the world.

Life is a gift, where no one knows that how much time we have. Life is not about seriousness. It’s not about that we have to win a race and be ahead of many. But it’s about how much we are enjoying our moments. It’s about how much we are happy. One should enjoy each and every moment they have. Do everything that you want so that at the end you don’t have to regret that you have missed all the things that you could not have.

If doing nonsense gives you some moments of joy then never stop yourself doing that. this has more sense then doing some sense which gives you nothing other then stress. 

We have a very short period of time so make friends, make relations, have fun in whatever ways you can, be with your family and enjoy. Let the surrounding feel your existence and enjoy your important existence.

The world is full of enjoyment. We just have to find them. There is everything funny around which makes us smile; we just have to change our vision to look at the things. Everything is beautiful; we just have to look at them with love. There is joke behind everything over which you can laugh; we just have to listen.

Achieving whatever you have aimed does not make a life successful, it’s about how much you have enjoyed.

So, bunk classes, go around with friends, make relations, fall in love, feel the moment, love people, be happy and make other happy. Live your life in moments, not in time. Then we will feel that life is beautiful.

MIS-TAKEN, WORST ONE...

   Oh god! What a big mistake I did. An unexpected one. No one can ever expect that type of mistake from me, even I can’t expect the same from myself, but I made.

   This is not that I don’t do mistakes, but as a human being I also do. And I am officially a person who makes a lot of mistakes, as I have done before. But this was a different one, which accidentally I did.

   28^th august, 2011, I woke up on my time. I did my all thing as per my boring routine. In the evening I went to meet one of my best my friend, who was going to his native for puja’s. she told me to see her off to airport, which I agreed. As her flight was on 29^th September, morning 5:15, so we left her place at night 11:30 for the airport.

   When officially the date was changing from 28^th to 29^th, we were in taxi. And as usual we didn’t notice that day change, which we should have. We reached the airport by 00:30. We had a lot of time to pass. So we did a lot of thing like walking all over the airport, staring at the beautiful cabin crews and passing comment on them, other then an important thing.

   On the other side two of my friends were eagerly waiting for our call, and things got worst when no one of us did.

   Actually, 29^th September is the date when two of my best friends Roan and Ashka made their unofficial presence together in the world. And it’s been four years. We all were expected to call her and wish, but eventually all of us forgot the importance of the date. The all important unofficial anniversary of the only couple of our group.

   We passed our night doing all bullshit and I got back to my place after seeing off Aashiya. By 12:30 P.M I got a call from Ashka for some important stuff and things got worst when I still didn’t notice the importance of the day.

   On 27^th September, I did remember all the things, and I had a plan to surprise them by my own way as they were about 1200 km away from me. But after that I forgot all the things.

   And on 30^th September, 10:15 p.m, I again got a call from Ashka. This was it was a call for reminding me my mistake and showing their anger which was genuine. And I can understand that when you expect something from the most important people around for you, and they don’t fulfill that, then how it feels. “Do you remember what the date was yesterday? I will never talk to you all again.”  These were the exact words after I received the call and then she just ended the call without waiting for my response. And then I realized that what a big mistake I have done. Late I got to know that my all friends did the same mistake.

   I called her back. She didn’t respond. I called again, again and again. I called her at least 30 times, but the result was the same, “the customer you are trying to reach is currently busy, try later”

   I know that she can’t be angry with us for a long time but still it’s very important to make the things right. I am trying for that, hoping that I will short that out.

   Waiting for the time when again everything will go normal and we all will be forgiven.

   One last thing, “Never break some one’s expectations if he or she is one of the most people around you, it hurts more then anything.”

AIMLESS YOUTH

Saket was getting bored of surfing through the net and reading the novels. So he decided to watch the television and he started navigating through the channels. Suddenly he stopped at channel; Wake up Sid was coming on that channel. And he thought he should watch that movie just for time pass.

   As the movie was going, he started associated himself with that movie. The story of “Sid” seems to be his story to him. Though his Dad was not as rich as Sid’s that he can get a Porsche as a gift after going thirty days to office and he was not that careless as Sid. But still a lot of things were same as the situation of Saket. As Sid hadn’t any goal in his life, Saket also didn’t have any specific goal. Actually after completing his graduation his aim keeps changing every ten days.  And still he was not sure what he wants to do in his life.

   Each morning he decides that he will do something and make his day worth, he will make himself happy and others too, but the day ends with the same story. he ends his day doing nothing. He was tired of that. He was tired of his boring life.

   Fortunately Sid’s life came on a track but Saket’s not.

   Saket also got emotional when Sid gave his first income like every other Indian. But he was still not able to think that how he will keep his parents happy. He was not able to find his inner talent. The work that will give him happiness. The passion that will give him satisfaction.

   This is not the story of a Sid or a Saket but most of the Indian youths. Most of them also don’t have goal or specific goal. Youths actually don’t get their mind stable to any one thing. They keep changing their aim at each stage of their life. In his childhood they set up engineering or doctor as their goal as their parents says without even knowing that what these things are. When they get a bit older as a teenager, they thinks that he must choose a sport or acting as a career. In graduation they set something else as their aim. But after the milestone graduation the youths get very confused. In setting their goal they forget to identify their talent. And so they get their own life ruined. After not getting any success in any field they starts thinking that he or she is a useless, and get frustrated of everything as well as depressed.

   At that time they need a support from their friends and their family to identify their inner talent. Friends and family should show confidence in him or her. And that confidence can work a booster and surely he or she will get success. And no more they will be called as a useless or aimless youth.

puja planning

   Yesterday one of my friend asked me about the Puja plan that what was I going to in puja’s evening. That reminded me of an incident of last puja with the same friend. When I remember that event, it put a smile on my face.

   We planned that day that we will visit each and every puja pandal whole night. Though this was boring but still I agreed with him. Any way I had to get bored at home doing nothing. Then something happened and whole the plan got another direction.

   That day we met according to our plan at 7 o’clock. He came with his bike and he had some work to do then return the bike to his brother. We went to shyambazar, where he had work, finished that. O the way I told him that how I got drunk first time with my friends and what we did all the night at my friends place. He got excited and asked me to buy a beer to drink. Before that day I also didn’t tasted beer. I told him that you should not drink like this on the road for first time. You can try it at home some day and today we have a plan for whole night. But he didn’t agreed and I had to buy one. We parked our bike at a place where there was not any rush. He opened the can and half emptied the bottle in a row. I got the can and again didn’t let him drink more coz I knew that this can go worst, we had a bike to drive and I didn’t know how to drive it. Another half of the can I somehow took coz the taste of that was terrible. All the thing was going well by that time. I was perfect but suddenly he started behaving like a drunk.

   He was joking. But yes the half can beer did it work. He started feeling uneasy. I bought some water for him but the result was zero. The situation was getting worst. The plan was already crashed.  But still he was willing to go by the plan. Somehow I managed to agree on we should go home before situation get worst. So I left him at home and got back.

   This time also I am planning for puja but not for BEER.