मन की बातें ४

चलो उड़ चलें,
एक परिंदे सा,
नीले आसमां पे,
बेख़ौफ़ होकर,
बादलों से भी ऊपर,
और ऊपर ।
जहां ,
ना सरहदें हैं,
न पाबंदियां,
बस जो है,
वो अपना सा है,
अपना एक पूरा आसमां ।। कुंदन ।।

गर ये खता है,
तो हां,
मैंने कर ली मोहब्बत ।
कर दिया किसी के नाम,
अपना दिल,
अपनी जान और अपनी साँसे ।।
अब तो बस,
मैं इंतज़ार में हूँ,
उनके आने का ।
के वो आए,
मुझे अपनाएँ,
या फिर मुझे सजा दे जुदाई का ।। कुंदन विद्यार्थी ।।

यूं न रूठो ,
इन हवाओ से,
और अपनी मुस्कराहट से ।
मेरी आँखों में देखो,
के मैं,
तेरा खतावार हूँ ।।
चाहे टूट कर,
चाह लो या,
तोड़ जाओ दिल को मेरे ।
के मैं,
तेरा,
तेरे सजा का हकदार हूँ ।। कुंदन विद्यार्थी ।।

तेरा अक्स,
दिल में,
यूँ सजा हुआ है,
के जैसे,
एक मंदिर में,
प्रेम की प्रतिमूर्ति ।
और मैं,
एक पुजारी सा,
तेरे दर पे,
हर सांस में,
तेरा ही नाम,
लिए जा रहा हूँ ।। कुंदन ।।

टूटकर,
इश्क में,
दिल ने चाहा तुझे ।
तुम मगर,
तोड़कर,
फिर इसे चल पड़े ।।
रास्तों से खफा,
इस कदर,
तुम हुए ।
अपने वादों,
से मुंह,
मोड़कर चल दिए ।। कुंदन ।।

मन की बातें 3

सब्र का बाँध,
टूटता सा चला जाता है,
तुझे देखकर ।
और मेरा मन,
तेरी आँखों के नीले समंदर में,
डूब जाने को मचल उठता है ।
कुछ इस कदर,
ये डूब सा,
जाना चाहता है,
के फिर,
जीना भी तेरी आँखों में,
मरना भी तेरी आँखों में ।। कुंदन ।।

अच्छा लगता है

अच्छा लगता है,
जब तुम,
मेरे सामने होती हो ।
और निगाहें उठाकर,
कभी मुझे तो कभी,
झुकी पलकों से जमीं को निहारती हो ।।
अच्छा लगता है,
तुम्हारा मुस्कुराना,
और तुम्हारा खिलखिलाना ।
हवा के थपेड़ो से,
तेरे गेसुओं का,
घटाओं की तरह लहराना ।।
अच्छा लगता है,
जब मेरे क़दमों से,
कदम मिलाकर साथ चलती हो ।
और अनजाने ही,
अपनी उंगलियों के कोने से,
मेरी हथेलियाँ छेड़ जाती हो ।।
अच्छा लगता है,
तुम्हारा मुझे,
मेरी गलतियों पे डांटना ।
के दिल करता है,
के हर बार,
गलतियां करता रहूँ ।।
तेरा मुझे सताना,
और फिर,
मुझे मनाना ।
परदे के कोने से,
हल्का सा,
इशारा कर जाना ।।
चुपके से खाबों में आना,
और फिर,
मेरी नींदों को हौले से चुराना ।
फिर प्यारी सी,
थपकियो से,
मुझे सुलाना अच्छा लगता है ।।
ये वादियाँ,
ये नज़ारे,
और ये ख़ामोशी भी ।
तुम हो तो,
सबकुछ,
अच्छा लगता है ।।
कुंदन विद्यार्थी

मन की बातें 2

थाम कर,
मेरा हाथ,
चलो उस जहाँ में,
जहां सिर्फ तुम होगी,
और मैं होऊंगा,
और हमारा प्यार होगा,
दरम्यां हमारे ।
जहां तुम कहोगी,
और मैं सुनूंगा,
और मेरी नज़रों में,
सिर्फ और सिर्फ,
तुम्हारा अक्स होगा ।
आओ चलो,
बादलों पे सवार होकर,
चलो बादलों की दुनियाँ में,
जहां बादलों का,
घर बनाकर,
बादलों से ही खेला करेंगे ।। कुंदन

मन की बातें - 1

तू शौक से कह देना,
के तुझे मुझसे मोहब्बत नहीं है,
पर उस से पहले दुआ कर ले,
के मैं बहरा हो जाऊं ।
के मैं अंधा हो जाऊं,
और तू हाथ थाम लेना,
किसी और का,
मेरे सामने ही ।।
तू चाहती अगर है,
के मुझे बुरा ना लगे,
के मैं तुझसे फिर कभी,
अपने प्यार का इजहार न करू ।
तो ए मेरे खुदा,
उठा हाथ,
और कह दे उस खुदा से,
के वो मेरी सांसे आखिरी कर दे ।। कुंदन ।।

The poetry of God

When I see you,
I see some words,
Beautifully carved,
Floating in the air.
Like the poetry of God,
Which the world wants to hear,
Like a very old song,
Still melodious and refreshing.

I see and I try,
To touch it with my fingers,
To feel you,
To sing you.
But Ah!
My hands are shrinking,
Suddenly I am going deaf,
or, it has stopped blowing suddenly?

                                            Kundan Vidyarthy

Love

Love is when you talk to hours and still the conversation is not over. Love is when you sit silently together and still enjoy it. Love is when no matter how angry or sad you are, you feel better together. Its when you can't see the sad face of each other and try every possible way to make each other smile. Love is when no matter how much you quarrel but very next moment you talk it is solved. It is when cry for each other and smile for each other. It is when you quarrel for each other and you protect each other. You enjoy the nonsense talls sometimes and sometimes go serious without a reason. Love is when you look into each others eyes and suddelny forgets to talk. Love is when you feel happiest together and saddest when apart. Love is when you find each others name at the top when stuck in a problem. Love is when you anonymously walks to each other, exchange few words and gets back to your busy schedule. It is when you feel that you can spend your whole life with each other happily. Love is when you share every little thing with each other and feel happy after sharing it. Love is when you can't imagine a life without each other. Love is when no matter how imperfect you are you feel perfect together.
Love is not just a word and don't have a specific definition. It is just a feeling which cant be defined. There is not any reason for falling in love. You just fall. Some times you know it and sometimes you dont. Sometimes you think you are in love but you are not actually in love. And sometimes very opposit happens. You strongly think that you are not in love but actually the fact is you are in love and you don't know it. Its about the comfortness we share with each other. Its not about just talking dirty with each other. Its not about getting physical or kissing or hugging but its about the bond you share with each other. Even intimation doesn't have any meaning if you are not comfortable or not in love with each other.
Sometimes love can change you. Change for good only. It makes you stronger and the weaker at the same time. Love makes you strong enough to do anything for each other and weak enough to make you cry even on the thought of getting apart. Love is about walking together and supporting each other in any kind of situation. Love is about absorbing each and every drop of pain from each others life. Love is love and this is the only thing which completes you and your life. This is the only thing which keeps you actually alive. If you are with the one you love you can acheive anything. Even impossible seems possible when your love is holding your hand. Love gives you immense power to do anything for each other and protect each other.
Love never happens with a soul or a body. Love is the connection between two beautiful hearts. Love binds two people for life in which one can never even think of hurting other for any reason. In love only love is there. Nothing holds more priority than love when you are actually truely in love.
So fall in love and make your life beautiful. Understand what you feel and do accordiblngly. If you love someone, say it today coz you never know if you will see a next day! You never know you will get another chance! You never know you get another life!
Remember, very few people gets a second chance so make your first chance count. Love and live happily together forever.

ग़म का साथ

हर कोई दिल को तोड़ चला,
जब साया भी संग छोड़ चला,
तब हाथ पकड़ कर मेरा फिर,
जिसने चलना सिखलाया है ।
उस ग़म का साथ निभाना है,
जिस ग़म ने मुझे अपनाया है ।।

सूनी राहें,
खाली बाहें ।
सूखी नयनों की,
बरसातें ।।
टूटे सपने ,
छूटे अपने ।
रह गयी तो बस,
रूठी यादें ।।
उस याद को क्यूँ मैं याद करूँ,
बरसात में प्यासा क्यूँ तरसूं ,
बस यही सोच मैं जीता हूँ,
अब दर्द ही दर्द मैं पीता हूँ ।।
जिसने पथराई अखियों से,
नींदों को दूर भगाया है ।
उस ग़म का साथ निभाना है,
जिस ग़म ने मुझे अपनाया है ।।

दो कदम चला,
जिन राहों पर ।
वो राहें भी,
संग छोड़ गयीं ।।
जिस मंजिल की,
मुझे चाहत थी ।
वो भी मुझसे,
जब खेल गयी ।।
तो उन राहों पर क्यूँ पैर धरू ,
मंजिल की तरफ कैसे जाऊं,
बस तन्हाई में जीता हूँ,
अपने जख्मों को सीता हूँ ।।
जिसने मेरे क़दमों को फिर,
एक अलग ही राह दिखाया है ।
उस ग़म का साथ निभाना है,
जिस ग़म ने मुझे अपनाया है ।।

कुछ कांटे थे,
कुछ पत्थर थे ।
कुछ हाथी दांत से,
खंजर थे ।।
जिसको मैं फूल,
समझता था ।
वो तो बाणों से,
बदतर थे ।।
फिर क्यूँ अब चोट सहूँ दिल पर,
फिर क्यूँ न अड़ जाऊं जिद पर,
के अबकी लौट ना पाऊंगा,
के अब ना धोखा खाऊंगा ।।
जीवन भर साथ निभाने का,
जिसने विश्वास जताया है ।
उस ग़म का साथ निभाना है,
जिस ग़म ने मुझे अपनाया है ।। कुंदन ।।

Let's walk together

Lets walk together,
Till where the sun sets,
To see where it goes,
And to know whether it rests.
Lets walk together,
To the other end of the moon,
To see who's there,
And to feel the pain of it's smiling face.
Lets walk together,
On the road,
Where there is no footprint,
To feel the loneliness of the unvisited place.
Lets walk together,
To the places where only you will be there,
And I will be there looking into your eyes,
Where we can spend our life undisturbed.
   kundan vidyarthy

I see you.

I see you,
Like I see life,
Very beautiful,
And refreshing.
Like the flower of the morning,
With dew drops on it,
Like the first ray of light,
And the first drop of rain.
I see life,
Like I see you with me,
Till the end of the sight,
Holding my hand,
And walking with me.
sometimes crying,
Sometimes laughing,
But together always,
Sharing Joy and pain.
I see you,
Like I see myself in your eyes,
And then I see,
You and me,
Playing a game where no one lose,
Everywhere there is happiness in that lane.

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 Kundan Vidyarthyy. 

The friends

Today is friendship day. Though, not everyone is here with me to celebrate the day together. But, wherever they are, I wish them a very happy friendship day. I promise them that I am always there for my friends. No matter how bad a situation I am stuck in, if they need me I will stand by their side to be a support.
   I have very few countable friends. But everyone is a gem. Not because they are my friends, but everyone of them is a very good human being.
There are times when we are together and we enjoy every moment of being together. We laugh and sometimes we get sad together. Sometimes we eat together and if any of us is not hungry, automatically we all starts feeling not to eat. Sometimes we get drunk together and do hukka (smoke) together. Even we cry together. Such special is our friendship.
   And if we are not together, we miss each other every moment. No matter how sad or happy we are, but we miss each other very much. Sometimes we run out of time and we stay out of touch for weeks. No phone calls and no meetings. But these things are not enough to affect our friendship. In fact, nothing can affect it. Our bond is so strong. And it will go stronger.
  I won't mention your name here coz you know that who you are. Thank you very much for being a part of my life. For making me smile whenever I am sad and for getting sad with me sometime. You all are special people. I love you all. I miss you all. Be same always. Thanks.
    Kundan jha.

Status symbol

He believed love. He valued relations. At least, as I knew him. As a friend and as space we shared from last five years. But today, as I am staring at him and he us walking away from me, he is looking like a stranger to me. I feel like, I don't even know a little bit of him.
He had a lot of people around him. Few good friends and a sweet, loving family. But the special place inside his heart was always vaccant. He wanted someone to fill that place in his life. He wanted someone who could understand him and care for him and love him. And I always believed that one day he would lead an endless relationship one day.
A true person he was, who knew the meaning of losing. And also he knew the meaning of waiting. Once when in school, he fell in love. But couldn't make his story as it was one sided and this ended before it started. Still, with the emotions he talked about that girl was enough for me to realize that he can never fake. He can never hurt a person.
This time when he got back to meet me after almost 6 months, he told me he is in a relationship. I was more than happy for him. Finally the space was filled. I congratulated him and asked many thing about the girl.
But, when I asked him about the future plans with his girlfriend, I was amazed with his response. I never expected this kind of reply from him. From any other guy I could have accepted it as I know how people think about a girl or a relationship today. But this was not just the other guy. He was the one who alway respected these things.
" Look yaar. I know it doesn't sound like me but really, she is just a status symbol for me in my college. She is a beautiful and good at academics too and a girlfriend like her ranks you on top among your friends. And I am enjoying this. One more year and I will walk my way. That's it."
His words were still echoing in my ears as he was waiting few steps away for me. He was looking at me and I was re- thinking my view about him. Does he really respect relations? Does he even respect a girl?  And friendship? Everything seemed fake....!!
    Kundan Vidyarthy

दहाड़ता हुआ सा - 3

1). पहले की बात और थी, पहले तो हम निशाने पे हुआ
करते थे ।। आज भी बेवजह ही परदा करने की ,पर
आदत नहीं गयी तुम्हारी ।। KRV ।।

2). कभी तूने कहा था के मैं तेरा आइना हु // और आज
टूटकर बिखरा पड़ा हु एक कांच की तरह //कुंदन
विद्यार्थी //

3). मैंने तो तेरी आँखों में बसकर तेरी नज़र से
दुनिया देखना चाहा था // तूने दरकिनार कर दिया मुझे
आंसुओं का बहाना करके // कुंदन विद्यार्थी//
4). तेरे इश्क में कुछ तन्हाईयाँ भी मिली, कुछ ग़म
भी मिले । लोगों की रुस्वाइयां भी मिली, और आँखे
नम भी हुए । पर जो नहीं मिले वो तुम थे और
जो नही भूला वो हम थे । फिर भी कटती है हर शाम
मुस्कुराती हुई तेरी दी हुई तन्हाईयो और ग़मो के
साथ । कुंदन विद्यार्थी ।।

5). तेरे लबों की हंसी और मेरे दिल के दर्द
का वास्ता कुछ यूँ था // तू हर हकीकत को ख्वाब
समझ कर भूल गयी और मैं हर ख्वाब को हकीकत
मानकर सांस लेता गया // कुंदन विद्यार्थी //

6). तुझ पत्थर की हीरे सी चमक में यूँ खोये रहे के जाने
कितने बेतरासे हीरों को नज़रंदाज़ कर दिया ।। कुंदन
विद्यार्थी ।।

7). मुझे गुमान था के मेरा चाँद दागदार नहीं है.... उसने
यूँ किया के मेरे इस गुमान का भी क़त्ल कर
दिया ....।। कुंदन विद्यार्थी।।

8). आज दिल जार जार रोने का चाहा // और फिर यूँ
हुआ के बादल बरस पड़े// कुंदन विद्यार्थी//

9). तुम मेरे ख्यालों से जाती ही नहीं हो // और कभी मैं
ही तुम्हें रोक लेता हूँ जाने से//इस तरह मैं
नींदों को भी भुला देता हूँ// और अक्सर ही सपनोंमें
मिलने का वादा तोड़ जाता हूँ मैं//कुंदन विद्यार्थी//

10). उसे डर है के कहीं उसे भी मोहब्बत ना हो जाए
मेरी तरह // शायद इसलिए हर बार सामने आने से
कतराती है //कुंदन विद्यार्थी //

11). तू उधर नाराज बैठी है
मैं इधर बेचैन बैठा हु
देखें ये सिलसिला चलेगा कबतक ।। कुंदन
विद्यार्थी ।।

My quotes : 1

1). sometimes ignorance is necessary to make them realize what they are missing.

2).We waste most of our times
discussing about a person who has
no importance in our life.

3). If you find any single reason for that you are in love with someone then you are not in love actually. Love doesn't happen for a reason or with a reason. It just happens and sometimes you don't even know that it has happened to you.

4). We all make mistakes as we are
humans... But when we say that we
made a mistake falling in love, we are wrong. Love can not be a mistake. It's the bad luck of that person who couldn't understand your true love...!!

5). Money is easy to earn... but what difficult is to earn the trust of some people... !! And keeping their
trust...!! And the biggest difference is... you can earn money back once you loose it but you can't earn the trust back once you break it...!!

6). Love makes our life beautiful? No, it only gives you pain and make you learn to live with it only. The day you learn to live with that pain and put a smile on your face, they assumes that your life is beautiful...!!

7). Don't follow me....i may not b on the right path..... Don't go ahead of me ..... i may not come along...... Just be with me in my gud or bad times...................!!

8). Love is a game of heart and
brain....where when heart agrees,
brain has to just follow......

9). They don't even respect you or your feelings.... and still they pretend to be loving and caring...! They don't even deserve your hate..!!

10). Don't pretend to be angry with your loved ones... sometimes it can
change everything and you won't be able to even regret it.

11). Sometimes you start loving the
person who doesnt deserve even a
bit of it....! The worst part is, you
know this fact but still you dont stop loving that person...!!

12). Don't give anyone the power to get away your smile from you. No one can, if you want. Keep smiling..!!
    kundan vidyarthy

Meesed up

My life have been a little messed up these days. I am busy, but still I do nothing whole day. A lot of things are going through my mind. What's wrong and what's right. I say I dont care for any such things or people but still, I cant stop caring for them or thinking about them.
Sorry, I am that messed that I don't even know what I am talking about. Lets start again.
I have been posting about my personnel life previously here just because this is the place where I can say my heart out without even caring what others think about it. No one reads it. Not even After I share my posts. And I don't share my personnel posts. So there is not any chance they will read it.
Right now my situation is like the moon. Not even like moon coz every one desires to have that glowing bulb up in the sky. You can say, its like sun. We all get everything from it but no one really wants it untill in a need. And no one cares about its loneliness.
Yes, I am alone like the sun. I have no one in life. Not even the person with whom I can cry it out. But, I am present for them whenever they need me. I am not complaining, nor am I regretting it. But this iz the fact and it hurt sometimes to be alone.
Right now I am friendless, funless, familyless and loveless. Less is everywhere in my life.
I have always been alone when it comes to relationship. Its not like I never loved, in fact I still love that girl very much but the fact is I have never been loved. May be because I am too good for them.
My friends are there but only when they need me otherwise I dont even exist. Still I dont complain. My family is away from me from last seven years. Right now I am too alone.
And as far as my career is concerned, its hanging. I am struggling and I don't know when this struggle will end. If it will end or not. The wait is killing me. And the patience is getting over now.
During last few days I have been pretending a lot. I have been pretending that I dont love her any more. It hurts now. Havent seen in a week now and I am crying inside. I am doing this because she doesng love me. She have some one else in her life and I am broke. But I dont want to let her know that I am broke. Even she doesnt care. Still I cant stop loving her. Its my fate to be alone I guess. The only thing is with me is my writing and my pain.
I need help. Please god, Help me. I am not so strong. I need a shoulder to cry on. Help me.  Please give me something to cheer about. Something to live for and smile for and work for. Are you listening godddd...?? Aren't you...? I am shouting for you...? Why dont you hear me if you exist...? You have to help me... !! Or I will assume that you dont exist...??