तन्हाई मेरे साथी

तन्हाइयों से क्या शिकवा करें, जख्म तो हैं मिले महफ़िलो से हमें । रास आये न हम मंजिलो को कभी, रास्तो से मोहब्बत मिली है हमें ।।

तुमको पाने की थी होड़ ऐसी लगी, जैसे सांसो से था वास्ता कुछ तेरा । मुड़ के देखा जो तब ये समझ आया की तुमको पाये न हम खुद को खोते गये ।।

राहतों का समंदर लगा जो कभी, उसकी चाहत में नदियों को छोड़ आये हम । पलकें भीगी रही दिल तड़पता रहा, प्यास भी न बुझी डूबते भी गए ।।

सोहबतों ने मेरी खूब टोका हमें, जा ठहर, सोच, मुड़, लौट आ अब भी तू । हम न सुन ही सके न समझ पाए हम, ना ही तेरे बने न ही घर के रहे ।।

अब तो मंज़र है ये खुद से भी दूर हूँ, खुद को भी इस तरह न मैं मंजूर हु । वक्त ऐसा है बस तन्हाइयां संग है, सारे सपने भी हमसे हैं रूठे हुए ।।
    कुंदन विद्यार्थी

Aamar Paagol Mon

I am not a bengali poet but tried for the first time using the limited knowledge I have of the language.

Paagol aamar mon... bhebe chhilo kono din...
Tumi aami songey songey... premer gaan gaaybo...
Praaner moton gaan..  je kokhono shesh hobe na...
Chirodinei premer pothe... tumi aamar thaakbe...!!

Paagol aamar mon... bhebe chhilo kono din...
Ei juger somosto bishoy... tomar chokhe dekhbo...
Surjo dekhbo ... dekhbo chand... sagarer lohor dekhbo...
Tomar sudhu sopno... amar chokhe thakbe...!!

Paagol aamar mon... bhebe chhilo kono din...
Tomar jonyo megher opare... ek ta shristi korbo...
Shristi jekhane tumi ami aamar duto taara hobe...
Somosto sukho tomader jonyo.... dukho aamar thakbe...

Paagol aamar mon... bhebechhilo kono din...
Paagol aamar mon... bhebe chhilo kono din...!!!

Kundan jha vidyarthy

Love

Love is when you talk to hours and still the conversation is not over. Love is when you sit silently together and still enjoy it. Love is when no matter how angry or sad you are, you feel better together. Its when you can't see the sad face of each other and try every possible way to make each other smile. Love is when no matter how much you quarrel but very next moment you talk it is solved. It is when cry for each other and smile for each other. It is when you quarrel for each other and you protect each other. You enjoy the nonsense talls sometimes and sometimes go serious without a reason. Love is when you look into each others eyes and suddelny forgets to talk. Love is when you feel happiest together and saddest when apart. Love is when you find each others name at the top when stuck in a problem. Love is when you anonymously walks to each other, exchange few words and gets back to your busy schedule. It is when you feel that you can spend your whole life with each other happily. Love is when you share every little thing with each other and feel happy after sharing it. Love is when you can't imagine a life without each other. Love is when no matter how imperfect you are you feel perfect together.
Love is not just a word and don't have a specific definition. It is just a feeling which cant be defined. There is not any reason for falling in love. You just fall. Some times you know it and sometimes you dont. Sometimes you think you are in love but you are not actually in love. And sometimes very opposit happens. You strongly think that you are not in love but actually the fact is you are in love and you don't know it. Its about the comfortness we share with each other. Its not about just talking dirty with each other. Its not about getting physical or kissing or hugging but its about the bond you share with each other. Even intimation doesn't have any meaning if you are not comfortable or not in love with each other.
Sometimes love can change you. Change for good only. It makes you stronger and the weaker at the same time. Love makes you strong enough to do anything for each other and weak enough to make you cry even on the thought of getting apart. Love is about walking together and supporting each other in any kind of situation. Love is about absorbing each and every drop of pain from each others life. Love is love and this is the only thing which completes you and your life. This is the only thing which keeps you actually alive. If you are with the one you love you can acheive anything. Even impossible seems possible when your love is holding your hand. Love gives you immense power to do anything for each other and protect each other.
Love never happens with a soul or a body. Love is the connection between two beautiful hearts. Love binds two people for life in which one can never even think of hurting other for any reason. In love only love is there. Nothing holds more priority than love when you are actually truely in love.
So fall in love and make your life beautiful. Understand what you feel and do accordiblngly. If you love someone, say it today coz you never know if you will see a next day! You never know you will get another chance! You never know you get another life!
Remember, very few people gets a second chance so make your first chance count. Love and live happily together forever.

Let's walk together

Lets walk together,
Till where the sun sets,
To see where it goes,
And to know whether it rests.
Lets walk together,
To the other end of the moon,
To see who's there,
And to feel the pain of it's smiling face.
Lets walk together,
On the road,
Where there is no footprint,
To feel the loneliness of the unvisited place.
Lets walk together,
To the places where only you will be there,
And I will be there looking into your eyes,
Where we can spend our life undisturbed.
   kundan vidyarthy

I see you.

I see you,
Like I see life,
Very beautiful,
And refreshing.
Like the flower of the morning,
With dew drops on it,
Like the first ray of light,
And the first drop of rain.
I see life,
Like I see you with me,
Till the end of the sight,
Holding my hand,
And walking with me.
sometimes crying,
Sometimes laughing,
But together always,
Sharing Joy and pain.
I see you,
Like I see myself in your eyes,
And then I see,
You and me,
Playing a game where no one lose,
Everywhere there is happiness in that lane.

Do like the page of my debut novel at facebook.com/theangellove
 Kundan Vidyarthyy. 

Status symbol

He believed love. He valued relations. At least, as I knew him. As a friend and as space we shared from last five years. But today, as I am staring at him and he us walking away from me, he is looking like a stranger to me. I feel like, I don't even know a little bit of him.
He had a lot of people around him. Few good friends and a sweet, loving family. But the special place inside his heart was always vaccant. He wanted someone to fill that place in his life. He wanted someone who could understand him and care for him and love him. And I always believed that one day he would lead an endless relationship one day.
A true person he was, who knew the meaning of losing. And also he knew the meaning of waiting. Once when in school, he fell in love. But couldn't make his story as it was one sided and this ended before it started. Still, with the emotions he talked about that girl was enough for me to realize that he can never fake. He can never hurt a person.
This time when he got back to meet me after almost 6 months, he told me he is in a relationship. I was more than happy for him. Finally the space was filled. I congratulated him and asked many thing about the girl.
But, when I asked him about the future plans with his girlfriend, I was amazed with his response. I never expected this kind of reply from him. From any other guy I could have accepted it as I know how people think about a girl or a relationship today. But this was not just the other guy. He was the one who alway respected these things.
" Look yaar. I know it doesn't sound like me but really, she is just a status symbol for me in my college. She is a beautiful and good at academics too and a girlfriend like her ranks you on top among your friends. And I am enjoying this. One more year and I will walk my way. That's it."
His words were still echoing in my ears as he was waiting few steps away for me. He was looking at me and I was re- thinking my view about him. Does he really respect relations? Does he even respect a girl?  And friendship? Everything seemed fake....!!
    Kundan Vidyarthy

The blank call: A poem

whenever I hold my phone,
My fingers starts dialing a number,
Without waiting for me to tell it,
As it knows its doing,
And when fingers hit the green button,
Ears attract the phone like a strong magnet,
And hands has no control over it,
May be it want to hear the ring tone,
Or it doesns want to miss any fraction of your voice,
And at the same time heart starts racing,
Ringing continues and racing too,
And then comes a sweet voice,
Like the drop of water in thirst,
Like the snowfall in the hot summer,
Like everything in a lonely world,
But then I forget to respond everytime,
Or I never wanted too I guess,
Just to hear the heartbeat of her voice,
And then I looses it,
A click and the connection ends,
Still I smile,
Coz at least I heard her.
   Kundan vidyarthy

Please forgive me...I can't stop Loving U.

I am alone.. at home thinking about what to cook. I am getting confused. Anyway, the point is, I am alone, yet not alone. I have someone in my mind, in my eyes and in my heart with whom I am sharing my loneliness. No matter how far she is, she never leaves me alone. She smiles in my eyes. She talks in my ears. She litsens to my lips. She gets angry in my thoughts and cools down with my breathe. And she feels it inside my heart. Running in throughout my body with the bloods. How can I be alone.
Anyway, a lot happened with me in last few weeks. Yes, finally something happened. And still nothing happened if you see it. But my eyes says, "I saw it". My heart says,"I am feeling the essence of it". She celebrated her birthday and I was all alone again on such a special day. Of course she was there in my thoughts. I wished for her and as usual, my wishes never comes true, as yet. And yet, knowing this fact, I am wishing for her to be by my side. Such a fool I am. But you know what, at some places, its better to be a fool.
During this period of few weeks. I met her numerous times. I came across her a few times. I told her a lot of things. Don't expect me to share it here whatever I said to her. It was just for her. Anyway, I realized that, the talks of heart can never end. No matter how much you express your feelings by words or without it, it all looks as little as few at the end of the day. You feel that you have still a lot to say. You have still a lot to express. I am feeling it. However, only god knows if I will get another chance. Another chance to say something, to letsen, to take care, to hide her from the world. I am still wishing for it.
I told her that few colors gets better while on her, she stopped thinking about those poor colors. I said that ecery living or non living smiles with her, she stopped smiling for us. I said she is the moon and she made the days and nights both dark for us. I wish, I could have kept it in my heart itself then at least we could desire for my moon from a distance. Tell you the secret, my moon is more beauty than any other moon in the world. Shhhh.....!!
She said she want to know me but didn't gave me a chance to let know about me. Now, its a different story altogether. I dont know where it is heading. I dont know what is going on with her. I dont know what she thinks about me. I know only thing that what I feel for her is not going to change anyway. She is the first one and last one for me. She is the most special person in my life and will remain so. I have been waiting for her from last few years and this wait will go untill the last hitch of my throat. I wish.....!!
Just I want to say, "Please forgive me... I can't stop Loving you."
Anyway, now I know what to cook and I am going to prepare for my food. Will be back soon with few short stories and poems. Thanks

Our story.

Yesterday was a very special day for me. It was the birthday of a very special person in my life. Though, we haven't met yet but still she is everything for me. It was the more special day for me than her, I guess. I spent the day only thinking about her. And my bad luck, I only could get only a one second long glimpse of her. She was looking too beaitiful in her pink top. She must not have noticed me but I noticed only her, the whole day. The so special day went without her again. I spent the whole day alone. I didn't like it. I thought to go and waste my six hours watching a useless movie, but the hope to get another glimpse of hers couldn't let me move from my place.
I had planned something for her. I wanted to send some flowers to her place as a bday wishing. However, I changed my plan because of my thoughts. I will never want her to face any problem because of me. And my present could have created a problem for her I guess.
How could I end up not wishing her. So I thought to call her and wish her. I don't know why I preferred to text her instead of calling at exactly 12 at night. I sent two texts and not any one got delivered unfortunately. And I did it again. Surely it reached her this time. And she replied too, with a thanks and a question. The question I always feared to answer. I didn't answer exactly what I should have. I was afraid. I am afraid. I am afraid to loose her, though, I never got her in my life. She was always far from me. I was just any other person to her may be. However, the fact is, she is everything to me. She still don't know that I wished her, I guess.
Today, its again the same old day, with my pen, paper and my thoughts. Of course she is there in my thoughts. However, I haven't written anything from morning. Not even a line. I am feeling lost. I am feeling restless. I want to talk to her. I want to see her. And its difficult in the circumstances. I just can hope for the better things to happen. I can't say that I can't live without her, of course I am living without her but, life will be more meaning ful with her. Life will be more happy with her.
There's more things going into my mind which I can't share with anyone, as there is no one to share. And this is the best place where I can write my heart out. And I know that she won't read it for sure. Safest place to say something where I know that no she is not listening.
I am thinking about my future, our future. And as a writer, I can sense what is going to happen. I can see the future. only two possibilities are their. Either this story will not turn out, or it will be a story with a lots of twists and turn which can be a bestseller. I want it to be simple. I want to have a love story where only happiness is there. I want to make it cute. I don't want to write our own story. I don't want  a villain in our life. I don't want our story to be a sad one. Hope she will understand me and my love and our cute upcoming story.

दहाड़ता हुआ सा 2

आज का दिन बड़ा ही खास है, क्यूंकि आज किसी खास का जन्मदिन है. मेरी तरफ से उसे बहुत सारी सुभकामनाये. और मैं चाहूँगा के आप सब भी उसके लिए दुआ करें. वो हमेशा हँसता  और मुस्कुराता रहे. चंद शेर उसके नाम समर्पित करता हूँ मैं आज फिर. यूँ तो मेरे सारे शब्द ही उसकी अमानत हैं. पर कभी कभी गुस्ताखी करने का दिल कर जाता है.



सुबह के नज़ारे से तुम्हें मांगते हैं,
शाम के धुंधलके से तुम्हें मांगते हैं,
चाँद की तपिश भी ठंडी पर जाती जब,
इसके उजालों से तुम्हें मांगते हैं//

चाँद को गुरूर अपनी चांदनी पे है,
मुझको यकीं तेरी रौशनी पे है,
बादलों में छुप गया न जाने वो कहाँ,
यूँ जाला वो चाँद तेरी रौशनी से है//

कुछ यूँ समेत लेती हो लहराती जुल्फों को,
सारे बिखरे बादल जैसे छुप से जाते हैं तेरी गेशुओं में//

तुझे ये मलाल के हम तुझे याद नहीं करते,
हमें ये सुकून के हम तो जीते तुम्हें देखकर हैं//

तुम पूछती हो मुझसे मेरी पहचान क्या हैं,
और मैं खुद को तेरी नज़रों में ढूंढता हू आज भी//

निकली हो पल्लव सी, कलियों सी खिलती हो,
इठलाती, बलखाती, इतराती, और महकाती//

चंद फूलों से क्या तेरा श्रींगार करूं मैं,
तू तो खुद गुलाब सी कोमल और सुन्दर हो//

के आज मेरा दिन है, तुझसे भी ज्यादा,
के आज मैं तुझे जी भर के निहारूंगा//
(Dedicated to the birthday girl)
kundan vidyarthy.

My marriage: A rumour.

Funny things keep happening with me always. And I enjoy it always, no matter it's in my favor or not. Most of the time it opposes me. However it is the part and parcel of the game and I don't complain it.
Anyway, it is about the latest funny incident. Believe me, its really funny. Few days ago an old man approached my home. I was not present there then. He introduced himself as a father while he looked like a grandfather. Now the joke starts. He was a father of a daughter and he was on a visit to my place for a 'Rishta'. When he said the related words, my father was in a funny sock. And other members of the family were hardly controlling their laughter. I couldn't have controlled if present though. The old man wanted to arrange my wedding to his daughter. And he wanted to see me.
"How do you know my son?" my father asked him. And the old man took a name which was hard to believe. Anyway the conversation went on like this.
"Okay, my son is actually not in the town. So tell me what do you want to know about him."
"There is nothing to ask as the relation is suggested by Raman babu. I just wanted to see your son and finalise everything." what a confident person he was.
"But I have something to tell you. Everything should get clear before we go ahead with it."
He looked with a bit confused eyes.
"My son does nothing. And he doesn't have a plan to do something meaning ful in near future. Apart, he is a wasted poet and an author too...." And he kept on counting the bad points about me to avoid this situation. The old man had the look of wonder in his eyes.
"But we heard that your son is in government service as told by Raman babu."
"Sorry, you have mis heard it." My dad said.
"No problem, we can wait for him. We are in no hurry." what he was? He wanted to tie his daughter to an unemployed person?
"Look Shyam babu, I don't want to hurt you but the fact is, we can't decide anything about my son. He has strictly asked me to not to look for anyone. And last, he is not yet matured to get married. So, you can look for a better groom around." Finally he went. And my sister called me to tell this. I couldn't stop my laughter. Nor she could. I mean, I am still only 23 and they want me to get married. And get married to a girl whom I don't even know. Strange it is.
And by the way, I don't believe in arranged marriages in todays world. It doesn't have any meaning. May be only I think this way, but love come arrange is the best possible option available.
"Aur Waise v, main shayar hu aur shayar arrange marriages to nai karte hain. Hum shayar to mohabbat karte hain. Main alag nahi hu."

दहाड़ता हुआ सा

कुछ शेर, जो आजकल मेरे अंदर उबलते हैं फिर शब्दों के रूप में बाहर आ जाते हैं. देखें कहाँ तक पहुचती है इसकी दहाड़........!!!

१ )   आवारों की बस्ती में फिरता रहा हूँ,
       तुझे याद अक्सर ही करता रहा हूँ,
       जाने कहाँ फिर दिखे तू मुझे, बस,
       ये उम्मीद लेके भटकता रहा हूँ///

२) लाल स्याही देख इसे खून न समझ लेना,
     हैं तो स्याही ही, लेकिन शब्द मेरे लहू से भींगे हैं//

३)   अच्छा हुआ के शीशा जानकार तोड़ दिया तुमने//
      अगर तुम ही नहीं तो ये दिल किस काम का//

४)   ना जाने भीड़ कैसी है, ना जाने होड कैसा है//
      मैं तो तन्हा ही फिसला था, मगर ये होड कैसा है//

५)   मेरी मोहब्बत का तुझे इल्म नहीं शायद//
      तेरा नाम पहले लेता हू और सांस बाद में//

६)   वो तो यूँही चोरी का इलज़ाम देते हैं मुझपर//
      चाहे तलाशी लेले, खुद के सिवा उन्हें कुछ नहीं मिलेगा//

७)   सब्र की बात भला पूछते हो तुम किस से//
      उम्र हमने भी काटी है उनकी राहों में//

८)   जिक्र जब भी मोहब्बत का आएगा//
      शायद तेरा नाम मेरे साथ ही लिया जाएगा//
      मेरा यूँ था के मैं जता भी ना सका//
      और तू खुद से भी छुपाती रह गयी//

९)   मुझे भूल जाना इतना आसान नहीं है ए सलमा//
       तू पलकें बंद करेगी, मैं खाबों में आ जाऊँगा//

१०)  मैं तो कबका छोड़ जाता ये सहर//
       बस डरता हू के तू मुझे और मैं तुझे भूल न जाऊं//  

११)   एक बार फिर से बेहेक जाने के लिए तो आ//
        मनाने के लिए ना सही, सताने के लिए तो आ//
        मुझे तो बस तेरे दीदार की ललक है//
        दिल में भले ही ना बसना तू, मगर दिल तोड़ जाने के लिए तो आ//
                                                                         कुंदन विद्यार्थी

ये  थे कुछ शेर, जो दहाड़ने की कोशिश कर रहे थे. अब दहाड़ कहा तक पहुचती है ये तो बाद की बात है.