AIMLESS YOUTH

Saket was getting bored of surfing through the net and reading the novels. So he decided to watch the television and he started navigating through the channels. Suddenly he stopped at channel; Wake up Sid was coming on that channel. And he thought he should watch that movie just for time pass.

   As the movie was going, he started associated himself with that movie. The story of “Sid” seems to be his story to him. Though his Dad was not as rich as Sid’s that he can get a Porsche as a gift after going thirty days to office and he was not that careless as Sid. But still a lot of things were same as the situation of Saket. As Sid hadn’t any goal in his life, Saket also didn’t have any specific goal. Actually after completing his graduation his aim keeps changing every ten days.  And still he was not sure what he wants to do in his life.

   Each morning he decides that he will do something and make his day worth, he will make himself happy and others too, but the day ends with the same story. he ends his day doing nothing. He was tired of that. He was tired of his boring life.

   Fortunately Sid’s life came on a track but Saket’s not.

   Saket also got emotional when Sid gave his first income like every other Indian. But he was still not able to think that how he will keep his parents happy. He was not able to find his inner talent. The work that will give him happiness. The passion that will give him satisfaction.

   This is not the story of a Sid or a Saket but most of the Indian youths. Most of them also don’t have goal or specific goal. Youths actually don’t get their mind stable to any one thing. They keep changing their aim at each stage of their life. In his childhood they set up engineering or doctor as their goal as their parents says without even knowing that what these things are. When they get a bit older as a teenager, they thinks that he must choose a sport or acting as a career. In graduation they set something else as their aim. But after the milestone graduation the youths get very confused. In setting their goal they forget to identify their talent. And so they get their own life ruined. After not getting any success in any field they starts thinking that he or she is a useless, and get frustrated of everything as well as depressed.

   At that time they need a support from their friends and their family to identify their inner talent. Friends and family should show confidence in him or her. And that confidence can work a booster and surely he or she will get success. And no more they will be called as a useless or aimless youth.

puja planning

   Yesterday one of my friend asked me about the Puja plan that what was I going to in puja’s evening. That reminded me of an incident of last puja with the same friend. When I remember that event, it put a smile on my face.

   We planned that day that we will visit each and every puja pandal whole night. Though this was boring but still I agreed with him. Any way I had to get bored at home doing nothing. Then something happened and whole the plan got another direction.

   That day we met according to our plan at 7 o’clock. He came with his bike and he had some work to do then return the bike to his brother. We went to shyambazar, where he had work, finished that. O the way I told him that how I got drunk first time with my friends and what we did all the night at my friends place. He got excited and asked me to buy a beer to drink. Before that day I also didn’t tasted beer. I told him that you should not drink like this on the road for first time. You can try it at home some day and today we have a plan for whole night. But he didn’t agreed and I had to buy one. We parked our bike at a place where there was not any rush. He opened the can and half emptied the bottle in a row. I got the can and again didn’t let him drink more coz I knew that this can go worst, we had a bike to drive and I didn’t know how to drive it. Another half of the can I somehow took coz the taste of that was terrible. All the thing was going well by that time. I was perfect but suddenly he started behaving like a drunk.

   He was joking. But yes the half can beer did it work. He started feeling uneasy. I bought some water for him but the result was zero. The situation was getting worst. The plan was already crashed.  But still he was willing to go by the plan. Somehow I managed to agree on we should go home before situation get worst. So I left him at home and got back.

   This time also I am planning for puja but not for BEER.

INTERVIEW

    Again Rohan woke up early in the morning today. He brushed his tooth, took a bath and finished hi breakfast by 7 A.M. He is doing so from last sixteen days. Before that he used to sleep late in night and woke up by 10 A.M. But from last sixteen days or so he changed his routine completely. Now he goes to bed by 10 P.M. and wake up by 6 A.M. Now he is no more lazy like before. And this all was because the interviews. Now he want to work and take over the responsibility of the family carried by his father. And this was his sixteenth interview in a row. Last fifteen time he got rejected. It was not like he was not a suitable person for the posts but he does not have a reference sometimes and sometimes the seats are limited but he never  lost the patience and tried his best each time.

    Today also he went for the interview. He was the 54^th candidate for the interview today. After sitting four straight hours his name got announced. He entered the interview room. He was sitting in front of a lady and a man of about 35 years. The first question they asked to him was if he have any reference or not. Rohan thought that today also they are not considering him coz he don’t have any reference. But he didn’t lost his confidence. They asked a lot of question after that and Rohan answered all of them confidently. He got out of the interview room thinking that he has made this.

    He went to home. He directly sat on his computer to check his mail box. The mailbox was showing  one mail from the same company which he given the interview today. He got delighted and thought that this must be the offer letter. He clicked on the mail and got freeze after reading. The mail was like this “ we are very sorry to inform you that you are not selected for the post you have given the interview today. We have considered your resume, and will let you know if company needs some people next time. Thanks for coming and all the best for the future.”

   Rohan was the only son of his parents and all the hopes of his family was on him only. His father gave him all the support to reach here and they were expecting Rohan to support them in these difficult moments. But Rohan  was helpless here. He couldn’t even manage a job till. He got depressed thinking all the thing in world. He was feeling to cry but couldn’t. Their was no one to give him a shoulder or consolidate him. He was all alone in this big world.  He thought that he was not of any use. So he decided to quit.

   He wrote a suicide note and went to the terrace of the building. He was ready to jump. Suddenly the face of his mother and father came onto his mind. They were crying like anything on his body. He felt disgusted from himself. How can he leave them crying. No, he will not. He will give them happiness of their life. He decided to try until he gets succeed. He torn the note and blew in the air. He will struggle.

    He was walking towards a new beginning.

   

LOVE ON THE PHONE

   She was talking on the phone, walking all alone thinking that no one is watching her. But he was looking at her and thinking of the person on the other side and trying to listen what she is talking. She was smiling and he was thinking that why she is smiling and at the same time he felt good seeing her refreshing smile. She was looking here and there that is someone coming or not without knowing that he is following her. And he was going jealous of the person whom she was talking with her without any reason. She was laughing on the phone but he felt that destiny is laughing at him. He thought to ask her that to whom she is talking but how and why? He didn’t got any answer. Yes of course he loved her but who is he to ask her such question. No he will not ask her. He assumed that she is talking to her (girl) friend and felt good. He now was enjoying her talk on the phone. He smiled each and every time she smiled, laughed each and every time she laughed, never thinking of the person on the other side.  He loved each and every time she talked on the phone. He waited to see her on the phone more then anything.

   One day he waited and waited till the night but she didn’t come and talked to anyone. He felt sad. Next day also the same thing happened. This went for more some days. Now he thought that may be she is committed with someone whom she used to talk on the phone and stopped thinking about her.

   One day early morning he saw her again but he felt that she is not happy. He felt that she has cried a lot. But why, he didn’t know. He felt guilt though he was not. She looked at him and he felt that she is trying to say something. So he decided to talk her any how.

   They met in the park that evening. He went to her and asked her that why is she so sad. She looked at him, starred at him and started punching him softly like a punching bag. She hugged him and started crying.  He hugged her back. Now both were crying. After some moment he asked her that what happened, why is she crying. She said that it’s because him. Boy thought what has he done. He never thought to hurt her. She said that she loves him and he ignored it so she is crying. He said that he thought she love some one else whom she used to talk on the phone. She said she didn’t talk to any one on the phone. She was acting so to get him jealous. She was thinking that he will talk to her after getting jealous because she knew that he loves her.  Now boy started crying thinking that he let her girl cry, he hurt her. He said sorry to that and also that he also love her very much. After that day they met each and every day.

   Now she talks on phone on the same place, smiling walking and laughing. He also feels good and do the same but without hiding. They now talk to each other on the phone. They smile at each other.

Am I In Love…….?????

Love…. this is the most important and most amazing word in the world. Every bit of existence is related to this word. Every bit of relations, each and every thing which exist is related to the word love.  Either you love someone or something or don’t. But I am very confused from last one months regarding my love life which actually does not exist.  Every time only one question revolves in my mind “do I love her?”. I never got an answer. After thinking a lot suddenly one more question arose in my mind that do I really know what is love? And again I found no answer. That means  if I don’t know what is love then how can I be in love? But it is technical. If think logical then it is possible but in my case I don’t know what it is.

   When I saw her I liked that cute face. I thought I am falling in love with her. I kept following her. I used to waste whole lot of time to just get a glimpse of her. And if sometime she looked at me then without any confusion I assumed that at least she also likes me. I collected every bit of information about her but without asking anyone but till I don’t know that much about her. I saw her in each and every dream, each and every night. But still I don’t know that I love her or not. I think of her 24* 7, I fallen in love each and every time I saw her and her cute face and her cute smile but was that love or just ii liked that. I lost myself whenever she came in front of me, in her eyes, in her cute smile, in her cute face. I stammered each and every time I talked to her in dreams but never talked to her in reality.

    Every day I woke up and decided to talk her any way. I wasted a lot of time to find her every day. Either I couldn’t find her or if I saw then I didn’t make to even wave my hand and say hello…. My heart beat goes three times faster each and every time I saw her. My heart came in mouth after just a feeling that she is around. She is just by my side but very far from me.

   I forget my every tension when I see her.  Whenever I tried to ignore her, I just couldn’t. I don’t want to even look at her sometimes but when she comes in front of me, my eyes just glued to her like she has a magnet in her eyes, in her face, in her smile.   I don’t even want to talk to her but each and every time I see her, want to say her, what I feel. I want to ask her the most important question of the world which has the smallest positive answer. Every time my eyes wanted to say her that I love her, I want to spent my whole life with her, I just want to look into her eyes for my life time, I want to see that most amazing smile which get me recharged for till the end of my life, I want to follow her without even asking her that where is she going, I just want to say that I will keep her deep in my heart and save her from every difficulty, I want to give her whole the happiness of world, I  will not die without her but I cant also live without her. But I never had that courage to say these to her.  I want to walk with her for each and every step I take.  I want to feel her each and every moment I live.   But is this possible I wondered. I am confused enough to think or not to think about her.

     Still I don’t know that is this love or something else. If this is not love then I will love to fall in love again and again with her.

I don’t know what she is. But she can be my life.